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greenstorm) wrote2022-10-23 02:02 pm
greenstorm) wrote2022-10-23 02:02 pm
Datapoints
Yesterday was very rough.
Today is really not great.
Is it:
The "gap days" in my birth control pills, so my first "period" on the pills (assuming I actually start bleeding)
The weather turning, the first grey in two months and some cold out
A crash from the super busy lead-up to the abattoir
Sadness at the death of my birds
Seeing the bad job the abattoir did of plucking, especially the two goslings but also a couple of the ducks, so I'll have to work harder to honour those deaths in a fitting and beautiful way
Knowing I need to touch base with them and ask: was it the feathering or fat texture, or did they just have new folks
Looking at the costs from the trip and worrying about this winter
Having neither Tucker nor Josh available to discuss/process any of the above with after the trip, and therefore not being able to put anything into context and regulate
Today is really not great.
Is it:
The "gap days" in my birth control pills, so my first "period" on the pills (assuming I actually start bleeding)
The weather turning, the first grey in two months and some cold out
A crash from the super busy lead-up to the abattoir
Sadness at the death of my birds
Seeing the bad job the abattoir did of plucking, especially the two goslings but also a couple of the ducks, so I'll have to work harder to honour those deaths in a fitting and beautiful way
Knowing I need to touch base with them and ask: was it the feathering or fat texture, or did they just have new folks
Looking at the costs from the trip and worrying about this winter
Having neither Tucker nor Josh available to discuss/process any of the above with after the trip, and therefore not being able to put anything into context and regulate