I never disliked her, and I think that's part of what's really scratching at me. I never felt any sort of connection or like she had any interest in me, there was just... nothing. I usually think I notice energy aimed in my direction. Maybe she was having a bad day and it came out like this, and the past wasn't really like this?

I want to know, but it is definitely not worth attempting to get that information out of her.

What a terrible set of self-talk she has in her head, though. I didn't know folks really earnestly used the word loser like that as adults. Or to think you're boring, within yourself? She wasn't arguing with anything I'd said, so she must have been arguing with herself.