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greenstorm) wrote2009-08-03 06:07 am
greenstorm) wrote2009-08-03 06:07 am
Entry tags:
- angus,
- cycle,
- link,
- me,
- relationship
Caught Up On Sleep
No money, lots of sleep, getting ready to go up to my boss' ranch for the week to work. The next couple of weeks are going to be interesting. Angus and I don't overlap any time in town, so there's gonna be a week, not just of not seeing each other but where there's also no cellphone reception for one or the other of us. Not lookin' forward to that. I think it'll be a first in terms of no-contact. I will miss that boy, though I'll use the time to do lots of useful things, no doubt.
The boss' ranch is up near Clinton, and I said, "Clinton!? I know people who go to a festival there every year!" and he said, "Yeah, the rodeo, right?". No, our worlds do not overlap, even a little. It's going to be strange living with these people for a week. They know I'm in an open relationship, they know all the facts about me basically, but I still control my behaviour around them quite a bit. That'll be a lot of control. Those hoops are going to be very necessary for some time off. I'm worries about slipping. My sense of humour's gonna have to be very far underground.
OTOH everything we eat there is coming from the propertry: veggie garden, venison, fish. That will make me happy.
I'm feeling decidedly less crazy now that I'm done bleeding.. This doesn't make me particularly happy. I don't like that hormonal ride; I like feeling more in control than that. I've been doing less biking, which may be part of the whole thing.
Boy has been having a very rough weekend. I don't talk about his being sick a lot, but he's sick a lot. I wish there was -something- I could do, you know?
Sunrise is just about over. I think I'll go down and hoop for awhile.
This song is so, so, so stuck in my head:
Now what to pack that's ok to wear up there. Also, to swim today. I need to get in the ocean to say goodbye.
The boss' ranch is up near Clinton, and I said, "Clinton!? I know people who go to a festival there every year!" and he said, "Yeah, the rodeo, right?". No, our worlds do not overlap, even a little. It's going to be strange living with these people for a week. They know I'm in an open relationship, they know all the facts about me basically, but I still control my behaviour around them quite a bit. That'll be a lot of control. Those hoops are going to be very necessary for some time off. I'm worries about slipping. My sense of humour's gonna have to be very far underground.
OTOH everything we eat there is coming from the propertry: veggie garden, venison, fish. That will make me happy.
I'm feeling decidedly less crazy now that I'm done bleeding.. This doesn't make me particularly happy. I don't like that hormonal ride; I like feeling more in control than that. I've been doing less biking, which may be part of the whole thing.
Boy has been having a very rough weekend. I don't talk about his being sick a lot, but he's sick a lot. I wish there was -something- I could do, you know?
Sunrise is just about over. I think I'll go down and hoop for awhile.
This song is so, so, so stuck in my head:
Now what to pack that's ok to wear up there. Also, to swim today. I need to get in the ocean to say goodbye.