First off, I'm really proud of you for unpacking this to the measure you have.
I had a hard time reading this, as the whole concept of fat is triggering for me. I've heard the trumpets of fat-activism, and although the words get to me, the feelings don't. I hate how shamed I can feel sometimes about my weight, about the number on my clothes, about those odd wiggles and jiggles that, despite my healthy lifestyle, won't leave me alone. I hate how the concept of FAT can alienate me from my body in an instant, making it my will versus the body instead of the oneness that is healthy.
I'm sad M had to go through that conversation with you for you to grow, and I sincerely hope that there were significantly more conversations and interactions on the topic to build him up. Chats like that stick with you, else.
I still remember my first fat rejection, when a group of high school acquantances thoughtlessly explained to me(when I questioned why I was excluded from a spin-the-bottle game), "Hey, it's not that we don't like you, but you're Fat. Of course you can't play, none of us are attracted to people your size." It kills me that fifteen years later, I still remember that.
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I had a hard time reading this, as the whole concept of fat is triggering for me. I've heard the trumpets of fat-activism, and although the words get to me, the feelings don't. I hate how shamed I can feel sometimes about my weight, about the number on my clothes, about those odd wiggles and jiggles that, despite my healthy lifestyle, won't leave me alone. I hate how the concept of FAT can alienate me from my body in an instant, making it my will versus the body instead of the oneness that is healthy.
I'm sad M had to go through that conversation with you for you to grow, and I sincerely hope that there were significantly more conversations and interactions on the topic to build him up. Chats like that stick with you, else.
I still remember my first fat rejection, when a group of high school acquantances thoughtlessly explained to me(when I questioned why I was excluded from a spin-the-bottle game), "Hey, it's not that we don't like you, but you're Fat. Of course you can't play, none of us are attracted to people your size." It kills me that fifteen years later, I still remember that.