Yeah, for awhile I had those two voices, now the societal one is quieter or sneakier, but it's getting better. I kind of feel like right now there are people who are hot who I don't think about weight at all with, Michael and you and Nicole are people who are exceptionally good looking, for instance, and then there is 'everyone else'-- kind of like saying 'I have friends that are gay, I'm not homophobic' and I hate that feeling. F'rinstance, until you wrote this it hadn't really occurred to me that anyone would consider putting you in that category.