Oh, sounded like you were waffling over this fact, when saying such as:

my inability to treat a human like, you know, a person instead of as a social issue

Guess I misread? In any case, yeah. Letting rationalizations cloud your actions on the matter is a great way to avoid acting how you feel. Which arises from, mostly, other places.

(There's a parallel here with political rationalizations for one's feelings about kink, *cough*)