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greenstorm) wrote2020-10-08 09:28 am
greenstorm) wrote2020-10-08 09:28 am
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Tendrils
Got another round of straw picked up, though it was raining so it's likely somewhat damp. These things happen. We're going into freeze soon so it shouldn't be too much of an issue.
Also got sauerkraut into the crock, which always is a nice ritual. I also taught mom to make sauerkraut, including wrapping a leaf over the top of the shreds to hold them down and puncturing it to let gasses through, so she has her own jar to take home.
Now I have a bunch of cabbage, some pears, some apples, and some tomatoes left to do.
The temperature has dropped enough that the woodstove is more comfortable to run, though it still needs to be intermittent. The humidity is dropping down again; normally we get dry summers but this summer it never stopped raining and it never got dry anywhere. It'll be nice to have things dry out.
We've been having a lot of cold drizzle lately, which is not my favourite.
The work line finally called me to schedule a counseling appointment in a couple weeks, so that's good. It feels nice to be remembered and not left.
I've been having intimacy dreams about folks I care about, and thinking a little about dating. My current constellation has involved physical and some domestic/support intimacy with Tucker, but not a lot of back-and-forth discussion about plans or feelings which is a pretty rare thing for me. I'd been talking with Josh a bunch for that aspect, but he's been pretty busy lately and he's also just pretty far away.
I'd been going to meet-ups with some of my former co-workers: we'd get together on the deck for "coffee" (I always bring my own tea) and chat on Saturday mornings. It's been really good, but I missed one for covid self-isolation while waiting my test results and a second for straw pick-up. That helps, I like those people and enjoy the conversations, but I don't fully fully trust them in the way that I could say anything.
Someone recently started a queer BC outdoorspeople group. It has potential. I am super uncomfortable with the term queer, but that's not really the issue with the group. The issue is that northern BC is really, really big with few people in it so getting enough folks in the group to have nearby co-campers or whatever seems difficult. On the other hand, I bet it's the kind of group that could have some camping meetups and those are easier to travel to than day trips.
I've been enjoying a podcast called "Gender Reveal" which is basically a series of one-hour interviews with mostly non-cis folks about their experiences.
So, yeah, I guess I'm lonely? I miss the kind of conversation where it's an extended amount of deep, intimate rubbing your thoughts against someone else's, and where they answer with their own thoughts, and it spirals around for hours. I seem to be fine for casual or passive conversation stuff, and there are folks who will listen to me. It just sometimes feels like talking into the void.
Also got sauerkraut into the crock, which always is a nice ritual. I also taught mom to make sauerkraut, including wrapping a leaf over the top of the shreds to hold them down and puncturing it to let gasses through, so she has her own jar to take home.
Now I have a bunch of cabbage, some pears, some apples, and some tomatoes left to do.
The temperature has dropped enough that the woodstove is more comfortable to run, though it still needs to be intermittent. The humidity is dropping down again; normally we get dry summers but this summer it never stopped raining and it never got dry anywhere. It'll be nice to have things dry out.
We've been having a lot of cold drizzle lately, which is not my favourite.
The work line finally called me to schedule a counseling appointment in a couple weeks, so that's good. It feels nice to be remembered and not left.
I've been having intimacy dreams about folks I care about, and thinking a little about dating. My current constellation has involved physical and some domestic/support intimacy with Tucker, but not a lot of back-and-forth discussion about plans or feelings which is a pretty rare thing for me. I'd been talking with Josh a bunch for that aspect, but he's been pretty busy lately and he's also just pretty far away.
I'd been going to meet-ups with some of my former co-workers: we'd get together on the deck for "coffee" (I always bring my own tea) and chat on Saturday mornings. It's been really good, but I missed one for covid self-isolation while waiting my test results and a second for straw pick-up. That helps, I like those people and enjoy the conversations, but I don't fully fully trust them in the way that I could say anything.
Someone recently started a queer BC outdoorspeople group. It has potential. I am super uncomfortable with the term queer, but that's not really the issue with the group. The issue is that northern BC is really, really big with few people in it so getting enough folks in the group to have nearby co-campers or whatever seems difficult. On the other hand, I bet it's the kind of group that could have some camping meetups and those are easier to travel to than day trips.
I've been enjoying a podcast called "Gender Reveal" which is basically a series of one-hour interviews with mostly non-cis folks about their experiences.
So, yeah, I guess I'm lonely? I miss the kind of conversation where it's an extended amount of deep, intimate rubbing your thoughts against someone else's, and where they answer with their own thoughts, and it spirals around for hours. I seem to be fine for casual or passive conversation stuff, and there are folks who will listen to me. It just sometimes feels like talking into the void.