Serenity

[greenstorm]

Well, now. This is interesting.

Here I am at home, and where I would have predicted myself to be unhappy and missing TOC I'm instead serene. Peaceful, and the morning is cool and lovely, and I feel content.

I got to spend the night beside the SO, last night. He came to bed early on my request, and he's still there now dozing. It's been a long time since I got to relax beside him like that with no possibility of interruption.

I've missed him. It's good to have this.

I still trust that the Juggler cares for me, even though he needs some space right now. Normally I am so very bad at that, but it works, somehow, right now. Maybe it's just that coming from him everything makes sense, instead of apparently contradicting. Who knows why?

I do miss him. I haven't had a ton of time with him lately, and I'm a little concerned that after the Exotic gets here I won't have much opportunity to see him often then, but we'll see. I don't intend on letting anything interrupt my intimacy with him, the SO, or TOW very much. I'll need them, and need privacy with them sometimes.

I'm beginning to trust, a little, that TOW cares for me. This is important, especially since my relationship with her tends to friction -- not direct friction, but in the corners where we rub against the guys and our relationships with them. She's very good at handling direct friction when it comes up, and she's... very good at caring about people. Unlike the Juggler, she doesn't say all the right things. Also unlike the Juggler, though, concern and sympathy show up very clearly in her words and actions -- I can always tell that he cares, but he never worries. ;)

So I'm at peace with most of the cast of characters, I've eaten my first little Sungold tomatoes out of the Juggler's garden, my own garden is here and I have all morning to putter in it, I have yummy food around (don't ask) and I have the comfortable flow of the SO around to interact with or not as things fall.

I'm really glad to have moments like these. Sometimes peace seems so far away and then it just creeps up and jumps on you. Peacefully.

Take care. More later.

Comments

[wik.livejournal.com]

Dammit. Are sungold the cherry-like tomatoes, or are you getting real, full-sized ones?

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

They're yellow cherry tomatoes, very very sweet. Have you notices that the first tomatoes of the year always taste a little bland and mushy, and they get more flavourful as time goes by?

[wik.livejournal.com]

I suppose so, but I think it's compensated for that they're the *first*, so that even if they don't taste as nice, they're still muchly appreciated.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

That is true. They're definitely better than store-bought still.