Depressive Streak

[greenstorm]

Okay, when this many things have set me off this badly in this short a time it's definitely a depressive streak. I'm getting good work done sorting through the things that boil up in myself and with the SO but it's pretty important to acknowledge that these aren't all coming up of their own weight. They're triggered by the episode.

Is the sudden lack of human support responsible for the sadness, or is the negative stuff biological/hormonal/something and responsible for my feeling a lack of human support? It's academic, really, but I'm curious.

Limiting depressive entries because if I let myself run on it gets worse, and I'm in no position to allow myself to be a baby right now. I spend a lot of my time being decadent but there are some times when one just has to shelve the whole business and get to work.

Don't think I'm not enjoying myself on and off here. The low peaks are just lower and more noticible right now, so they tend to overshadow.

Comments

[darthmaus.livejournal.com]

Sure you have a lack of human support? I can hardly imagine a situation in which you'd be totally without support for more than a couple of hours -- depending, of course, on what constitutes "support".

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Revising concept of support. 100 percent attention and focus 100 percent of the time is not necessary for support, I'm realising. When I expect something unrealistic then I can't get it. When I realise it's okay to shoot for a human-achievable level of support and feel a little bit bad sometimes it's easier. Who'da thunk it?