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greenstorm ([personal profile] greenstorm) wrote2003-06-25 02:30 am

2:30 Love Songs

Why is it that all the sad love songs are about failure? Why is it that I can't find a one that's beautiful, haunting, and conveys the sheer anguish of hanging on through the difficult parts simply because you know it's worth it, you know the people are worth it, and so you don't have the luxury of giving up? Why don't they ever say anything about the precipitous highs and lows that a relationship can bring, about how it's a cycle that really does keep happening over and over and how they're actually not going to give up over it and that because they aren't gonna give up it's harder than all the cheap pop top-40 things that complain about a past failure and how hard it is to say goodbye? Leaving someone means you have a fresh slate. Real confusion and worry sets in when you have it scrawled full and have to fill in the six really hard missing bits, and you can't just wipe it clean and redo the easy bits. You know?

Yeah, sure, I'm rambling. I need a song like this right now. A song that says, yeah, you're doing the right thing and sure it feels like crap sometimes, but you're doing the right thing and it will be worth it.

Oh, man. So many nights like this strung out in the past, and there are so many more in the future. Is this a major component of life? Forever?

It's good to be posting just a little again. It's good to be struggling for something important rather than flailing about uselessly for meaning. It's good to hurt because I love, and not because there's nothing to love. So? Don't worry. Be well. I will, soon enough, do the same.

[identity profile] estrellada.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
Ani DiFranco- Joyful Girl (not exactly a love song, but I like it)
Dido- Feels Like Fire
Bjork- Hyperballad (currently a favorite)
chorus goes:
I go through a list
before you wake up
so I can feel happier
to feel safe again
with you.
Ani DiFranco-As Is.

I'm sure I have more, this is just what is in my current play list. Conventional love songs suck.

[identity profile] darthmaus.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
Actually, lots of Ani songs, sweetie -- listen to the CD I made for K.

[identity profile] wik.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, Ani has that sort of sarcastic optimism down.

[identity profile] breklor.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 07:49 am (UTC)(link)
It's good to see you posting again. *Hugs* and tea... (because tea fixes everything!)

[identity profile] greenstorm.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmmmmr. Tea. And hugs. And sunshine.

All fixed. Please step into the waiting room, the next episode will be with you shortly.

[identity profile] greenstorm.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Urgh. I just saw this movie, Real Genius, with this slow lovingly shot popcorn scene...

[identity profile] breklor.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeek, I haven't seen that movie in years. I don't even remember that scene.

[identity profile] saxifrage00.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
It's where they blow up the Evil Professor's house with popcorn.

[identity profile] breklor.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh right, with the big foil thing and the solar thing and stuff.

Yeahhhhh.

That was amusing. :)

[identity profile] lazarus7.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 05:31 pm (UTC)(link)
my wife even wrote one ... *smile*

[identity profile] greenstorm.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, wow. I may need the lyrics and/or some way of hearing this?

Re:

[identity profile] lazarus7.livejournal.com 2003-06-25 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I will see what I can do ... no promises though.

She has been writing songs for a while and I am understandably quite enamoured of her and the songs.