greenstorm | 2:30 Love Songs

Why is it that all the sad love songs are about failure? Why is it that I can't find a one that's beautiful, haunting, and conveys the sheer anguish of hanging on through the difficult parts simply because you know it's worth it, you know the people are worth it, and so you don't have the luxury of giving up? Why don't they ever say anything about the precipitous highs and lows that a relationship can bring, about how it's a cycle that really does keep happening over and over and how they're actually not going to give up over it and that because they aren't gonna give up it's harder than all the cheap pop top-40 things that complain about a past failure and how hard it is to say goodbye? Leaving someone means you have a fresh slate. Real confusion and worry sets in when you have it scrawled full and have to fill in the six really hard missing bits, and you can't just wipe it clean and redo the easy bits. You know?

Yeah, sure, I'm rambling. I need a song like this right now. A song that says, yeah, you're doing the right thing and sure it feels like crap sometimes, but you're doing the right thing and it will be worth it.

Oh, man. So many nights like this strung out in the past, and there are so many more in the future. Is this a major component of life? Forever?

It's good to be posting just a little again. It's good to be struggling for something important rather than flailing about uselessly for meaning. It's good to hurt because I love, and not because there's nothing to love. So? Don't worry. Be well. I will, soon enough, do the same.