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greenstorm) wrote2022-03-01 07:35 pm
greenstorm) wrote2022-03-01 07:35 pm
Certainty
I'd like to state, for the record, that any time I'm certain of an event or make a sure declarative about the future that thing will not come to pass. Homes, relationships, jobs, leaving, staying: in my life, if I come to completely expect something, it will not come to pass.
A&E have had a bid accepted on a property in the mid-north Vancouver Island. Everything happens for many reasons each with its own lens:
I. just. Said. That. I. Was. Staying. Here. My heart just believed it and I had less than a day of rest alone in this space after mom left and before they viewed the property.
Also it's spring and people are selling, so this was a reasonable time for this to happen after braking for the winter.
Also A&E have been waiting all winter and are more able to compromise on location, especially since Tucker (without telling anyone, but they got the message at least) removed his requirements from the search. It's pretty remote.
There are a lot of subjects to remove on the offer including sale of A&E's place (they have ten viewings this week), inspection, water test, and ability to get insurance.
I have not been there to walk it. After A&E's place has an accepted bid (if?) I'll fly down for a day or two to look it over, mark trees for clearing, mark fencelines, and then come back up here and live with Threshold for awhile longer. There's no way to go down before it's ready for the animals, after all.
Not having walked it I can't tell you about it. I can tell you about North Vancouver Island, though. It's intensely pacific northwest, west coast. It freezes in the winter intermittently, and not for many days at a time. It's heavy overcast to drizzly well over half the time; almost no one would recognise the rain as rain because not a lot of water tends to come down at once but it is always damp. It's a little dryer and sunnier in summer but less than you might think. Everything is green and smells like leaf mould and conifer and water. Summers are also cool; I'm not sure exactly how cool yet but I may not get much warmer than here. Thing is, it would be the same temperature as here but frost free for maybe twice as long. That introduces possibilities like yuzu and very hardy kumquats.
I don't really want to talk about it though? I'm here with Threshold, and I want to be here, and enjoy here. I don't want to spend my thoughts on places far away, though I do love the planning exercise. I want to be in the present moment because I love it here.
There's lots before this is completely sure: interpersonal, financial, legal. It may never happen, who knows? But it's looking likely at this moment. A&E will look over offers Thursday and until then I am so far outside my mind and my body I'm finding myself just standing places, staring, and it's hard to move.
There's a lot more to say about this. I wanted to put it down here though. Ahead of me may be this place without (yet) a name. I once again don't know what happens next.
A&E have had a bid accepted on a property in the mid-north Vancouver Island. Everything happens for many reasons each with its own lens:
I. just. Said. That. I. Was. Staying. Here. My heart just believed it and I had less than a day of rest alone in this space after mom left and before they viewed the property.
Also it's spring and people are selling, so this was a reasonable time for this to happen after braking for the winter.
Also A&E have been waiting all winter and are more able to compromise on location, especially since Tucker (without telling anyone, but they got the message at least) removed his requirements from the search. It's pretty remote.
There are a lot of subjects to remove on the offer including sale of A&E's place (they have ten viewings this week), inspection, water test, and ability to get insurance.
I have not been there to walk it. After A&E's place has an accepted bid (if?) I'll fly down for a day or two to look it over, mark trees for clearing, mark fencelines, and then come back up here and live with Threshold for awhile longer. There's no way to go down before it's ready for the animals, after all.
Not having walked it I can't tell you about it. I can tell you about North Vancouver Island, though. It's intensely pacific northwest, west coast. It freezes in the winter intermittently, and not for many days at a time. It's heavy overcast to drizzly well over half the time; almost no one would recognise the rain as rain because not a lot of water tends to come down at once but it is always damp. It's a little dryer and sunnier in summer but less than you might think. Everything is green and smells like leaf mould and conifer and water. Summers are also cool; I'm not sure exactly how cool yet but I may not get much warmer than here. Thing is, it would be the same temperature as here but frost free for maybe twice as long. That introduces possibilities like yuzu and very hardy kumquats.
I don't really want to talk about it though? I'm here with Threshold, and I want to be here, and enjoy here. I don't want to spend my thoughts on places far away, though I do love the planning exercise. I want to be in the present moment because I love it here.
There's lots before this is completely sure: interpersonal, financial, legal. It may never happen, who knows? But it's looking likely at this moment. A&E will look over offers Thursday and until then I am so far outside my mind and my body I'm finding myself just standing places, staring, and it's hard to move.
There's a lot more to say about this. I wanted to put it down here though. Ahead of me may be this place without (yet) a name. I once again don't know what happens next.
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once you have a system in place that everyone agrees to, you don't have to discuss it all the time, just do it and check in occasionally - unless the system breaks down.
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We've had the feed conversation now! And the "this place is expensive to heat, how do we do utilities" conversation, and some of the "when money comes into the farm from the farm where does it go" and I've stated my need for some structure around the process of deciding rather than me trying to think of everything that might occur now and bring it up.
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for the former, MRT has a savings account that acts as a group cushion. the savings are inviolate, save that disasters can be handled from them. when the washing machine died, we bought a new one from the MRT savings, with the agreement that SR will pay back half the cost of it (with the other half being MRT's group contribution) over the next year from farm income sources. we are generally able to achieve that, and end up running a tab with MRT but it's always moving - we pay things off, we borrow, we pay things off. the 3 months-of-expenses savings pad basically stays put.
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excellent! i think it's a people thing, but that not all people are conscious of it, especially in a new process/experience.
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those all sound like great steps forward! and yeah, there's no way you can think of everything right now; life is emergent. so the processes support emergence & change, and the process itself is like a net in that way.
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Right? And who wants to try and think of everything, that's a huge weight. I'd rather sort through things over time rather than try and frontload it all. I'll know more by then too.
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that is SO much great information packed into that process, wow. awesome.
you will absolutely know more later, about all kinds of things. so yeah, a process that holds room for change and supports whatever arises.
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all to say - it can be done! clear communication & clear expectations/responsibilities/processes are the key.
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