absolute yes on that; i think that is a very human thing, to be more capable of resilience and generosity and forgiveness when you know the whole thing won't crumble under you just because it's hard.
and it can feel very stifling, yes. i swing between feeling like i am living the best life i can possibly live, and feeling pretty trapped by the endless to-do list and the constant obligation to interact with people. that's even without heavy things going on; heavy things nearly always trigger my desire to flee. i have successfully resisted so far. but i've never really had something potentially great to feel towards, either. which is a real factor there.
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Date: 2022-06-13 07:40 pm (UTC)and it can feel very stifling, yes. i swing between feeling like i am living the best life i can possibly live, and feeling pretty trapped by the endless to-do list and the constant obligation to interact with people. that's even without heavy things going on; heavy things nearly always trigger my desire to flee. i have successfully resisted so far. but i've never really had something potentially great to feel towards, either. which is a real factor there.