Yes. Exactly. With Tucker we have the flow back and forth but not the follow-up and so it feels safe until something is amiss, and then it feels like being dropped.
That sounds like an intimate, rewarding, and supportive dynamic and I'm so glad you have it.
Josh and I have had to change directions a couple times, and I think anyone who's with me has to. I'm just... variable. It didn't feel like disaster because we were both going into it as a trial, and we were thoughtful about it and could talk about it. But, it did feel like a disaster because it's hard for me to envision or trust something I haven't seen happen somewhere in the world and there are no good poly models. It all has to be invented from scratch one molecule at a time, and the normative relationship escalator needs to be demolished. So hard.
I hope your communication is going well. I imagine that either way knowing will be easier than waiting.
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Date: 2021-08-20 04:04 am (UTC)That sounds like an intimate, rewarding, and supportive dynamic and I'm so glad you have it.
Josh and I have had to change directions a couple times, and I think anyone who's with me has to. I'm just... variable. It didn't feel like disaster because we were both going into it as a trial, and we were thoughtful about it and could talk about it. But, it did feel like a disaster because it's hard for me to envision or trust something I haven't seen happen somewhere in the world and there are no good poly models. It all has to be invented from scratch one molecule at a time, and the normative relationship escalator needs to be demolished. So hard.
I hope your communication is going well. I imagine that either way knowing will be easier than waiting.