Very Comfortable Indeed
Jun. 11th, 2003 08:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormMmmkay. I'm on the tail end of an exercise high -- mom called and we went running for an hour earlier. It was a lovely, lovely run ten times around the track and then the there-and-back. I forget how much a track lap is again.
I generally feel good. My body likes to be used, i've got some stuff done around the house, I'm catching up on my sleep, I've talked to the Exotic a bit about some important stuff and it's mostly smooth sailing between myself and the SO. The lovely and very considerate Juggler called me last night to wish me a good-bye since I didn't see him at his place before I left, which really did make my night, and Heritage has really amazing blooms.
I'm flirting with the idea of RPing now, with the alternative being sleep. I'm well-fed and there's lots of yummy milk here, and the cool Winged One is on the game to chat with. He says he likes my characters which is quite a compliment, too.
Maybe 'settled' is the term I'm looking for - I feel settled, comfortable, at home, in harmony. Not flights of angels type harmony, but just good. Why?
In reality it's probably a combination of stuff being wrapped up with the Exotic, food, and exercise. The stress that's been on me for the last month or so has lifted pretty much completely -- it allows the usual stresses to come out again, sure, but it's a huge relief.
There's a nice mix of time to myself and stuff to look forward to, too, along with this recent decision to take care of myself and give myself permission to say no to stuff I don't want to do. That ability to say no -- to anyone, if I so decide -- is a really incredible thing. I really do feel head and shoulders taller than before, almost literally. All it really is is taking complete responsibility for myself and not waiting on anyone else to decide things for me in my own best interests, but there it is.
Two entertaining facts: after this last couple of weeks I'm developing interesting 'sex muscles', that is, the shape of my legs and hips is changing because I'm using a lot of different positions more often and those muscles are thus getting worked a lot.
The Juggler doesn't sweat salty. That is, when he sweats, he doesn't taste salty. I sweat very salty; there was a bit of crystallisation on me after the run today. Entertained? I am.
Be well. I'm off to luxuriate in my options.
I generally feel good. My body likes to be used, i've got some stuff done around the house, I'm catching up on my sleep, I've talked to the Exotic a bit about some important stuff and it's mostly smooth sailing between myself and the SO. The lovely and very considerate Juggler called me last night to wish me a good-bye since I didn't see him at his place before I left, which really did make my night, and Heritage has really amazing blooms.
I'm flirting with the idea of RPing now, with the alternative being sleep. I'm well-fed and there's lots of yummy milk here, and the cool Winged One is on the game to chat with. He says he likes my characters which is quite a compliment, too.
Maybe 'settled' is the term I'm looking for - I feel settled, comfortable, at home, in harmony. Not flights of angels type harmony, but just good. Why?
In reality it's probably a combination of stuff being wrapped up with the Exotic, food, and exercise. The stress that's been on me for the last month or so has lifted pretty much completely -- it allows the usual stresses to come out again, sure, but it's a huge relief.
There's a nice mix of time to myself and stuff to look forward to, too, along with this recent decision to take care of myself and give myself permission to say no to stuff I don't want to do. That ability to say no -- to anyone, if I so decide -- is a really incredible thing. I really do feel head and shoulders taller than before, almost literally. All it really is is taking complete responsibility for myself and not waiting on anyone else to decide things for me in my own best interests, but there it is.
Two entertaining facts: after this last couple of weeks I'm developing interesting 'sex muscles', that is, the shape of my legs and hips is changing because I'm using a lot of different positions more often and those muscles are thus getting worked a lot.
The Juggler doesn't sweat salty. That is, when he sweats, he doesn't taste salty. I sweat very salty; there was a bit of crystallisation on me after the run today. Entertained? I am.
Be well. I'm off to luxuriate in my options.
