Fragments in the morning
Jul. 26th, 2023 08:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormI wake in the middle of the night
After you leave
Roll over against you--
In sleep I'd forgotten.
***
My dreams don't seem to work the same as most people's. I don't generally have nightmares, and usually they come to me with a very clear metaphor or with a sense of care, security, and love that I'm lacking at the moment. Sometimes they're action-adventure dreams with themes that could apply to nightmares but they're just... fine.
Last night I dreamed that I was visiting down south, helping someone move their stuff into a storage locker. There was the usual messing around with the truck and trying to fit everything in the right place. When we all (?) went to drive home, there were three of us, I opened the wildfire app and the entire province north of Vancouver was under evacuation alert.
When I woke up it was damp outside from the rain and I felt relief at how lucky we are to have got this rain. So, not a nightmare, but sort of a possible continuation of the real hot dry weather that we got a break from, an alternate timeline if you will. I'm trying to sort out whether to make my trip down south to do religious things and visit my pottery friend and also reciprocate a visit from Tucker finally, I'd kind of cancelled it in my mind but now we have so much water it might be ok? Though money is always an issue.
Anyhow, I can see the clear lines of processing, and there was no lingering dread, so it's definitely not a nightmare.
This morning is breezy and cool. Our afternoon thunderstorms took a bit of a jog, we had rain the other morning and a clear afternoon for a change.
With the stuff my body and mind have been doing I'm still thinking a lot about what I'd have wished to do with my life. I know most people do this with regret, but when I've spent a couple hours doing the rounds: loving my new pup, loving my other dogs, snuggling with my cats, walking in my garden, my heart is full. Sure, there's lots I still intend on doing ad money is deeply stressful right now, but this kind of life is where I want to be.
After you leave
Roll over against you--
In sleep I'd forgotten.
***
My dreams don't seem to work the same as most people's. I don't generally have nightmares, and usually they come to me with a very clear metaphor or with a sense of care, security, and love that I'm lacking at the moment. Sometimes they're action-adventure dreams with themes that could apply to nightmares but they're just... fine.
Last night I dreamed that I was visiting down south, helping someone move their stuff into a storage locker. There was the usual messing around with the truck and trying to fit everything in the right place. When we all (?) went to drive home, there were three of us, I opened the wildfire app and the entire province north of Vancouver was under evacuation alert.
When I woke up it was damp outside from the rain and I felt relief at how lucky we are to have got this rain. So, not a nightmare, but sort of a possible continuation of the real hot dry weather that we got a break from, an alternate timeline if you will. I'm trying to sort out whether to make my trip down south to do religious things and visit my pottery friend and also reciprocate a visit from Tucker finally, I'd kind of cancelled it in my mind but now we have so much water it might be ok? Though money is always an issue.
Anyhow, I can see the clear lines of processing, and there was no lingering dread, so it's definitely not a nightmare.
This morning is breezy and cool. Our afternoon thunderstorms took a bit of a jog, we had rain the other morning and a clear afternoon for a change.
With the stuff my body and mind have been doing I'm still thinking a lot about what I'd have wished to do with my life. I know most people do this with regret, but when I've spent a couple hours doing the rounds: loving my new pup, loving my other dogs, snuggling with my cats, walking in my garden, my heart is full. Sure, there's lots I still intend on doing ad money is deeply stressful right now, but this kind of life is where I want to be.
