Productive

I'm keeping today productive. Thus far:

Work
Something morally right but scary
Weekly banking
Prescription dropoff
Housetidying
Housecleaning
Necessary informational calling
Lots of plant maintenance/rearranging
Furniture rearrqanging (note to SO: it's okay)
Appointment scheduling

I wish I had a vacuum. Our carpet is icky.

Now dishes, breakfast, and a bath. Then shopping. I notice that as soon as I eat, I stop being productive. Also, if I'm very happy I'm not productive. Go figure. ;P

Hmm.

Whenever I asked my mom to do something she didn't want to do, or if she was feeling very stressed about time and somewhat unthanked, she'd come up with a sentence like this: I need to do the dishes, fold the laundry, change the bedsheets, make dinner, pick up the bedroom, etc. It was her way of saying, this is a bad time, do you really need this now? And also it was her way of asking for thanks and a bit of a break.

I notice I do something similar: I do the stuff first, then I come out with the list. I'm not quite sure what I'm asking for with it, because given that I've already done the stuff, I'm not asking for more time to finish it. I'm not trying to say, I've had a busy day I don't want to do stuff now. I think I may be trying to say, tell me thank you. I think I may also be trying to say, make sure what you want to do with me is relaxing.

It's always funny how many bits of mom come out in me.

(Canon in D in the background, on endless repeat. There's something to be said for having an empty house sometimes. I wonder where all my candles have got to?)

Woah...

... I just realised, about a quarter second ago and for the first time, that some people think of livejournal as a communication medium instead of an information source or reference guide.

That's a very strange idea to me, but it does explain why people often react as if I were communicating my journal to them and anyone who might happen to read it, instead of just putting it there to be quirky trivia or an external reference point.

The information is still conveyed, sure, but... oh, my. The idea is very different. It's like the difference between acting in front of a camera and having someone watching you through the window in terms of intent, and the opposite way around in terms of is-that-thought-still-in-her-head-when-I-read-this. If I know I need ot act on something, I'll act on it before I put it in my livejournal. If I'm confused, I'll write the confusion here, and having written it my mind will work through it better -- then I'll do what I need to do, and maybe write about it.

Bearing malice and dislike are things I need to 'do things about.' They're also things I tend to only do in front of the camera, so to speak, when I start thinking I should feel a certain way and forget that I have control over my options. That's one of the reasons I don't write to communicate -- text is an awful medium to communicate in, through it's very good for stating reference material clearly.

Hm. This idea has confused me a little more as I go into it. It's confused me beyond words, in fact. Gives me something to think about in the bath. :)