Monday In Review
Feb. 3rd, 2004 12:33 amMmmm.
Long day. Good day. Longest ever work day yet (I keep saying that because I'm increasing the hours I do slowly, there is a reason ;).
I left my work stuff in the SO's car, and he dropped it off to get the breaks fixed. We went to get it in the morning, and ended up at a place called Reno's for breakfast. It's a good diner, in true diner style.
I've missed spending that kind of time with him, outside, in the world. When I'm with the Juggler we sort of shut the rest of the world out. When I'm with TOW it's almost an... oppositional thing, them vs. us, with the world divided into bits that are them and us. With the SO it's us together in the world, in the whole thing. At least, it used to be, and it seemed to be that way again this morning. There's no malice or dislike or distancing in him; he can enjoy everything. I love that in him.
I've realised that one of the reasons I roleplay is as an outlet for strong emotion. That is, growing up I always felt very strong emotions, and they were appropriate at the time to the situations I was in. Now I'm in a situation I really really like, with people I really really like, and the correct emotion for that is... contentment.
I still have this capacity for lightning-type emotion, though, and it interferes in my life if I don't use up my capacity once in awhile. So, I roleplay, and put the emotion out there, and other people enjoy it, and all are served.
I haven't been rping much, and I think it shows. I go looking for that passion, that sparkle, in my day to day life -- and then my common sense gets the better of me and I don't follow up on any of it. I don't want to complicate my life, I want to use up the emotion in a safe arena.
I may think about taking up acting again. That does it pretty well.
Got m'cleric on EQ up to level fourteen. My old cleric was fifteen. I'm catching up there, although the enchanter's substantially lower level still :(
And that brings us to... goodnight, and take care :)
Long day. Good day. Longest ever work day yet (I keep saying that because I'm increasing the hours I do slowly, there is a reason ;).
I left my work stuff in the SO's car, and he dropped it off to get the breaks fixed. We went to get it in the morning, and ended up at a place called Reno's for breakfast. It's a good diner, in true diner style.
I've missed spending that kind of time with him, outside, in the world. When I'm with the Juggler we sort of shut the rest of the world out. When I'm with TOW it's almost an... oppositional thing, them vs. us, with the world divided into bits that are them and us. With the SO it's us together in the world, in the whole thing. At least, it used to be, and it seemed to be that way again this morning. There's no malice or dislike or distancing in him; he can enjoy everything. I love that in him.
I've realised that one of the reasons I roleplay is as an outlet for strong emotion. That is, growing up I always felt very strong emotions, and they were appropriate at the time to the situations I was in. Now I'm in a situation I really really like, with people I really really like, and the correct emotion for that is... contentment.
I still have this capacity for lightning-type emotion, though, and it interferes in my life if I don't use up my capacity once in awhile. So, I roleplay, and put the emotion out there, and other people enjoy it, and all are served.
I haven't been rping much, and I think it shows. I go looking for that passion, that sparkle, in my day to day life -- and then my common sense gets the better of me and I don't follow up on any of it. I don't want to complicate my life, I want to use up the emotion in a safe arena.
I may think about taking up acting again. That does it pretty well.
Got m'cleric on EQ up to level fourteen. My old cleric was fifteen. I'm catching up there, although the enchanter's substantially lower level still :(
And that brings us to... goodnight, and take care :)