Analysis

It's very strange how early morning and late night are so reliable as the times I'll get unhappy. Morning is worse than night, because at night I can say, "It's almost tomorrow, go to sleep" to myself and do that, but in the morning I just have to bull through it until everyone wakes up and does all there stuff and then I finally get to see them. There's no quick way to get through all that.

I'm realising that I may need to reconsider some stuff with the Juggler while I'm otherwise-single, as there's a lot of support he can't provide in his current position and some of the stuff I do with him makes me uncertain such that I need that support. If I cut that stuff out, it might simplify things.

My problem is that I tend not to like making sacrifices for the sake of simplification. That's what poly's all about -- complexity. :/

I'm spending a lot of time wanting to hide otu in a cave or something in the last few days, and wanting to be around people at the same time. It's that same thing that's bothering me -- the complexity of interacting with people is a little beyond me right now.

Bah. I think I need a day off. I think I have one Thursday, though, so that's fine.

Other news: the new betta is doing very well, his find have all perked up and hes swimming around very actively in his new home. I need to get him some real plant material, though. His tank came with some hideous orange plastic things. His hobbies include glaring at things, attacking the filter, trying to build bubble nests that get wiped out by the filter, and making threatening runs at the glass. I bet there's a bit of a reflection there.

No idea how the plants are doing yet.

And...

...reliably, as soon as I began to do something purposeful, I felt better. I do need to spend something about the time I spend waiting for things. I haven't the patience or the time to do that as much as I do. :/