Mar. 27th, 2005
I feel rooted, now. Whole. There was something essential missing when I thought that the bond/love/whatever between me and Kynnin had been so one-sided that it could be discarded without afterthought by him. It made my trust in people disappear, and my trust in people is an important part of me. Now I understand that he was just confused and sorting stuff out, and nothing vanished in a moment, nothing was illusory. The importance of this can't really be overstated.
I'm humbled, somehow, and happy to be so.
My worries about the Juggler have eased - there's no precedent, so why should I worry?
I occupy the space more completely when I'm with Chris now, not hiding away a bit of me in reserve. He keeps asking me what's wrong. Nothing is wrong, Chris, it's only that the world has depth again.
Thank you, world.
I'm humbled, somehow, and happy to be so.
My worries about the Juggler have eased - there's no precedent, so why should I worry?
I occupy the space more completely when I'm with Chris now, not hiding away a bit of me in reserve. He keeps asking me what's wrong. Nothing is wrong, Chris, it's only that the world has depth again.
Thank you, world.