Clarity

...and when I allow myself to look at what I want, and what seems reasonable to me, I can see it now. I'm moving in an active rather than a reactive manner, I think. Perhaps that's what releasing fear of loss and fear of pain does. The thing itself, of course I can live with. I have lived with it. The fear of it? That's what constrains, what limits options and closes down sanity.

I slept a full night last night. It's been awhile. I'm still having trouble eating, hopefully some hot broth will do the trick. I think things will be okay.