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Changes Ahead
May. 1st, 2012 10:18 pmI'm not sure when I was here last. I know it's been awhile. I haven't had time home alone in awhile, and that's when I write. I haven't had much time at home and awake in quite some time, truthfully.
School finishes at the end of June. I've given my notice today at work, officially, for the end of June. I've done that to push myself into finding something I actually want to do. I don't have any offers right now, but I do have some connections and some very interesting prospects that I should get on pretty damn soon.
Blake's been laid off, and it looks like all his job prospects are either in Seattle, California, or... New York? Kelowna? Not Vancouver, at any rate.
I'm seeing Angus again, a little bit, as time permits. Practising poly, as opposed to putting off the practice needed to break this relationship in.
I don't know what my life will look like in July, in November, in the future, but it will be different. It will be interesting.
I can't wait to come out of my school-work cocoon where I have no self and climb into the sunlight of my life again. I can't wait to be here more, to be anywhere with people more, to spend more time with my family and especially with myself (I think I am really my favourite person in the end, or I understand myself the best, or something). I loo forward to thinking about things again, and watering my garden and snuggling my rats and whatever else happens.
So here I am, scared, still cocooned, waiting... but with a date on emergence. I expect there'll be a big scramble in June and early July, but I expect everything will, in the end, be ok.
I feel loved again, not sitting at the bottom of the pit but held up by my web again. The web is sparser than it was, but each thread is stronger. I'm learning, just a little, to trust people with my weight.
School finishes at the end of June. I've given my notice today at work, officially, for the end of June. I've done that to push myself into finding something I actually want to do. I don't have any offers right now, but I do have some connections and some very interesting prospects that I should get on pretty damn soon.
Blake's been laid off, and it looks like all his job prospects are either in Seattle, California, or... New York? Kelowna? Not Vancouver, at any rate.
I'm seeing Angus again, a little bit, as time permits. Practising poly, as opposed to putting off the practice needed to break this relationship in.
I don't know what my life will look like in July, in November, in the future, but it will be different. It will be interesting.
I can't wait to come out of my school-work cocoon where I have no self and climb into the sunlight of my life again. I can't wait to be here more, to be anywhere with people more, to spend more time with my family and especially with myself (I think I am really my favourite person in the end, or I understand myself the best, or something). I loo forward to thinking about things again, and watering my garden and snuggling my rats and whatever else happens.
So here I am, scared, still cocooned, waiting... but with a date on emergence. I expect there'll be a big scramble in June and early July, but I expect everything will, in the end, be ok.
I feel loved again, not sitting at the bottom of the pit but held up by my web again. The web is sparser than it was, but each thread is stronger. I'm learning, just a little, to trust people with my weight.
