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The Opposite of Overextended
Aug. 30th, 2014 06:51 pmThis weekend I haven't gone anywhere; not out of town, not to Dave's place (Dave is out of town), not yet to work. Instead I started yoga again and spent some time feeling like I belong in my home, like my space is my own.
It's a great feeling.
All the things I like are here: stuff to make booze including booze to clarify and prep for bottling and bottles to play with and frozen gooseberries to start into wine, my kitchen stuff (I just made a batch of beef stew for tonight and loaded the slow cooker with bean/veggie stew for the week), stuff to clean up (not my favourite, but gives me a sense of power over space), my rabbit friends, my books, my music, my houseplants, and my door to lock the world out.
So nice it rained today. That's always restful and helps me slow down.
I'm reminded that I can make a life I love. I guess I entered the summer needing to be social, and when my social needs filled up I forgot to check in and start cancelling things. So now my social is topped up, and I've been desperately needing this time to myself. Dave's two-week trip back home was a great space for me to catch up on all the things I needed to do (I've been SO BUSY. Too busy, I don't like the pace) and now finally to catch up on myself.
I'm also reminded just how important exercise is for my mental health. The bike or walk to work from the new place here in the west end just isn't enough for me, and I was having trouble getting out of bed and being excited about my stuff. After just a couple yoga classes I'm back to being pretty happy and level feeling, and also to being super productive. This is a lesson I'd best not forget.
School starts next week. I'd been worried about going into the school year completely burnt out. Now I have a little breathing space, and it will be ok. I'm not really looking forward to being on that kind of budget again, both time and money, but my goal is to actively tweak the time thing until it works for me, and I have a bunch of stored wealth (wine kits! books! Fabric! Unlimited yoga pass!) to coast on for awhile.
It's a great feeling.
All the things I like are here: stuff to make booze including booze to clarify and prep for bottling and bottles to play with and frozen gooseberries to start into wine, my kitchen stuff (I just made a batch of beef stew for tonight and loaded the slow cooker with bean/veggie stew for the week), stuff to clean up (not my favourite, but gives me a sense of power over space), my rabbit friends, my books, my music, my houseplants, and my door to lock the world out.
So nice it rained today. That's always restful and helps me slow down.
I'm reminded that I can make a life I love. I guess I entered the summer needing to be social, and when my social needs filled up I forgot to check in and start cancelling things. So now my social is topped up, and I've been desperately needing this time to myself. Dave's two-week trip back home was a great space for me to catch up on all the things I needed to do (I've been SO BUSY. Too busy, I don't like the pace) and now finally to catch up on myself.
I'm also reminded just how important exercise is for my mental health. The bike or walk to work from the new place here in the west end just isn't enough for me, and I was having trouble getting out of bed and being excited about my stuff. After just a couple yoga classes I'm back to being pretty happy and level feeling, and also to being super productive. This is a lesson I'd best not forget.
School starts next week. I'd been worried about going into the school year completely burnt out. Now I have a little breathing space, and it will be ok. I'm not really looking forward to being on that kind of budget again, both time and money, but my goal is to actively tweak the time thing until it works for me, and I have a bunch of stored wealth (wine kits! books! Fabric! Unlimited yoga pass!) to coast on for awhile.
