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I have a stack of books I ordered a couple months ago that came in: the Tao of Vegetable Gardening, Polysecure, the Seed Underground, the Seed Garden, the Organic Grain Grower.
It's time to plant peppers, herbs, and eggplants at least, and maybe tomatoes and tomatillos and ground cherries.
These are things I love to do, so when I think about taking a day off work to do them, that's difficult. The activities push hard back against me, or my mind gets slippery. But.
Yesterday I filled the planting trays with soil. Because I'm getting old food from the supermarket I have lots of little clear dome greenhouses.
This morning I picked out the seed packets to sow.
Now I'm avoiding sowing the seeds by going back to bed with one of my new books. I'll probably also set up a goose breeding pen. These are also things I like but that feel like pressure, so on their own I resist them. As a piece of avoidance? I can enjoy them.
My life is all such elaborate choreography.
It's time to plant peppers, herbs, and eggplants at least, and maybe tomatoes and tomatillos and ground cherries.
These are things I love to do, so when I think about taking a day off work to do them, that's difficult. The activities push hard back against me, or my mind gets slippery. But.
Yesterday I filled the planting trays with soil. Because I'm getting old food from the supermarket I have lots of little clear dome greenhouses.
This morning I picked out the seed packets to sow.
Now I'm avoiding sowing the seeds by going back to bed with one of my new books. I'll probably also set up a goose breeding pen. These are also things I like but that feel like pressure, so on their own I resist them. As a piece of avoidance? I can enjoy them.
My life is all such elaborate choreography.
