Thoughts after my brother's wedding

Oldest son
Responsible one
Peacemaker
You try to mend the world
With a million kindnesses
And every day
A little
It works
The world is on your shoulders
Sometimes in your hands
May its joy
Always outweigh
Its burden

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Open-heart
Joy-maker
Lover of animals and family
Saviour of silent lives
May you always walk
Supported
In many worlds at once

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We all have something that brings out our spine. Countercultural. Joe is vegan, Al is antivax, Ben is anti sane, and goodness knows what I am.

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I drove down to Sherry's with Tucker and left my truck in Vancouver, with pottery and wedding shoes. I didn't want to drive Seattle traffic. I left one key at Sherry's, accidentally. The spare was in Fort: respectively 5 and 12 hours drive away. My community in Fort rallied to get the key flown down Monday (I'm not planning to leave till Friday) and there are a couple options for the other key.

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I'm reinspired by my work last year that was half-finished at Sherry's. I miss putting poems on my work. I got a bunch of texture tools/stamps. The plan is to spend some time going there.

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I met my brother's new wife for the first time yesterday, at their western ceremony. She's very nice and she works with animals, which I appreciate. They've bought a condo and want to spawn. I wish them well. The wedding was very sweet.

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I find myself wondering what it would be like if family and community had ever come together in a celebration to support and approve of something I was doing. Maybe life-changing. Even if I held my wedding to myself people would come but maybe not with such support. They'd come because I asked, not because they believed in the institutions I was supporting.

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Housesitter messages me that I may have another cat staying in the house. Very curious to see who's there when I come home.

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My home is full of emotional support. Being around family -- some on my dad's side I hadn't seen in thirty years -- was very strange. People love me here. It's not home though.

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Point Grey traffic was unreal last night as everyone moved to the darkest area they could think of for the extra strong aurora borealis.

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I love my family a lot. They're not my home, but I love them.