Ahhhh...

[greenstorm]

roleplay, phone conversations, sex, chili, ice cream sandwiches, roleplay, sleep, sex, work, rosemary rock salt bagels, friendlyhangingoutness, home, rats, email, BREATHE.

My beautiful marshmallow bed is waiting for me to squoosh into it, buried under a foot of covers with my limbs sticking out in the coolish/warmish night air coming ini through the windows. I will listen to Temple of the Dog and Joni Mitchell and the Talking Heads and U2 and Janis Joplin, and read The Sapphire Rose by Eddings and lust after Ulath and be all sleepy-like. I will drink lots of water, cause I've been dehydrating over the last few days.

I need to get a copy of Happy Day off Kynnin. Kynnin, is there any way I can just ftp those songs off you or something?

"Hey Jude, don't make it bad, take a sad song and make it better. Remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better. Hey Jude, don't be afraid, you were made to go out and get her. The minute you let her under your skin, then you begin to make it better."

Tonight, I've got life under my skin.

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[wik.livejournal.com]

If I got half the sex you seem to have, I'd be a happy camper. ;)

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

It's erratic for me. I enjoy it when I can.

You definitely have to work to find good sex on even a semi-regular basis, though. So many auditions, screenings, etc... *le sigh*

;)

[saxifrage00.livejournal.com]

I discovered more stuff of yours that I have: three tupperware bins of gardening and sewing stuff, as well as some books and Christmas decorations. In all that I'm sure I can get a copy of John Millard & Happy Day made to go with.

[cz_unit]

Tell me about the BREATHE bit

CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Well, in some ways it's pretty literal. When I write it, what I mean is that I... regain my own shape, I suppose. When I'm running full-tilt for a day, I'm doing a lot of interacting, reacting, acting, doing, all that kind of stuff. When I've got a break, what I need to do after winding down for a second is to take all the pieces of myself that were stretched out doing those things, and bring them back into myself. Center myself, I suppose, is a commonish term for it all. It's mostly regaining a sense of myself as an entity, in my mind, instead of filling my mind with all the stuff going on. Just be? Hm, this all sounds like catchy slogan material, and not what I mean at all, but maybe it comes close?

At night, or in quiet times when I can't get a hold of my own mind, I actually do breathing exercises. Lie on my back, breathe in-ten-seconds, hold-seven, out-ten-seconds. That is one difficult thing to do, ten seconds is forever, and it gives me a bit of blank mental space to come back into myself. In this case, I didn't need to do anything that extreme to achieve mindfulness again.

[cz_unit]

Okay. One of my friends told me to remember to breathe while dating someone. I sort of understood what she meant, but was wondering what you thought of it as well.

CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Hee! I find actually remembering to physically breathe while dating someone new and immensely exciting is important. Otherwise there's this dizzy ringing-in-your-ears thing, and you fall over a lot.

Though yes, it's probably a good idea to remember to do the other thing too. I tend to have a lot of squishy identity spots that get tangled up in people, and remembering which bits of me are solid would have distinct benefits.

*muses*

That's really timely advice, actually. Thanks.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

From the closet?

[saxifrage00.livejournal.com]

Yes indeed, they were hiding in the closet. :)