Food Helps.

[greenstorm]

I still have that vat of pea soup that I made, and a bowl of it into me makes a big difference. The pieces, surreal, crazy, scary, weird though they may be, are all slipping together into a coherent, manageable picture now. I called Juggler on the phone and he said, 'have you eaten and slept enough? Usually when you're like this it means you haven't'.

Sometimes I think love is knowing someone better than they do themselves. This is why I love CrazyChris; he knows me like this, and sometimes I think I know him like this. Juggler is learning it now, too, which is pretty nice.

I've become a creature of habit lately. Lately, in my own mind, is always a rather short time frame-- this week, the last three days. Still, lately:
-I wake up at 7-7:30
-I eat. Sometimes I fall back asleep, sometimes not. Sometimes there is someone in bed, or it's not my bed, sometimes not.
-I do computer info rounds: main email account, livejournal, game site.
-I go to work for about ten thirty, getting a 24-hours paper on the way.
-I start the crossword on the paper. Usually there is at least one clue that's repeated from yesterday's.
-I work, have a break, work, have lunch, work, have a break, and am done work around 4-5ish.
-Sometimes I finish the crossword, sometimes I am irritated by it.
-I kill time/eat/dash home before Scheduled Evening Stuff, maybe do computer rounds.
-I do scheduled evening stuff: Monday Korean movies, Tuesday kayak building, Wednesday and Friday play rehearsal, Thursday family dinner.
-I do computer rounds.
-I go to sleep between 11pm and 1pm.

Rinse. Repeat.