Aha.

[greenstorm]

Paul Simon, Graceland. http://s10.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1U60245KKS7BP21K0L49OVJO76

Kynnin wanted me to listen to it when we first met, and I didn't want to. Then a friend on the internet recommended it, and I listened, and he was a little hurt. I remember.

I'm afraid of romanticism. I want Ye Grande Romance like I had with Kynnin, and then with Jan, but haven't had for a number of years. I want it, but I'm terrified. It didn't work so well those times. At least, in the one it faded out and left me so wounded, and in the other it wounded him because there wasn't the underlying compatibility there.

So here's me yearning and running at the same time. That's what's been weird. It's been informing the dynamic between me and everyone, really. There's where the friction is coming from between Juggler and I. There's... yeah. There it is.

Comments

[whimsicalzephyr.livejournal.com]

Ye Grande Romance is terrifying. I have it, and I still feel like running sometimes. I don't have any advice. Just identifying with you over here.

Scary thing is, I have room for more grand romance in my life. *sigh*

[skiddlyboo.livejournal.com]

If you run, can I run with you?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_greenwitch_/]

I call it the 'run away!' reflex, with a nod to Monty Python. I have this fear that if a relationship is going well, and I relax my guard, give my trust, then it'll get fucked up just like my other relationships did. Also known as 'waiting for the other shoe to drop.'

hug!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_greenwitch_/]

I call it the 'run away!' reflex, with a nod to Monty Python. I have this fear that if a relationship is going well, and I relax my guard, give my trust, then it'll get fucked up just like my other relationships did. Also known as 'waiting for the other shoe to drop.'

hug!