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greenstormThe SO's been stressed lately. I've been ... I was going to say too busy to manifest the stress, but that isn't precisely accurate. I burn the adrenaline for a week restlessly and then crash to sleep for a couple of days. I've got three homes right now with a secure base in none.
So? I asked the SO if he might not want to fast-track our move into the new apartment instead of waiting out our month. He's feeling strain from not having a stable base and splitting time with TOH too. He thinks it might be a good idea. I think so too.
Bringing some boxes back into Van today; mom works out here and will transport back and forth. Stupidly left my purse at TOH before I left for here this morning. Lots more running around to get it, aaargh!
I write in telegrams when I'm in a hurry. Can you see it?
Weird progress on the relationship front. I don't know if it's being supported in this stuff that did it or if it's a natural relationship step, but TOW and the Juggler seem to be breaking through into my weird trust issues. I'm acting like a nutcase and keeping them up until weird hours of the night talking about it. They say it's no problem... I reserve judgement.
It's oddly reassuring, though. I may be a nutcase, but I'm a familiar nutcase. This part of me I've been through, I understand, it isn't something completely new and unknown like the stuff that's been coming at me for months. I need to be careful about the quick scorn I offer myself for these emotions, but I also need to be careful not to cling too them too tightly simply because they're familiar. Familiar things are in very short supply right now.
I borrowed the Juggler's digital camera today and managed some pictures of the deck before the battery died. A couple are going in my resume package, but I expect to take up _locke's offer and dsplay a couple here, too. It's sad to be dismantling the garden... I really should start on the one at TOH now that their closing date's past and they own the house.
Relationship? What relationship? I'm just using them for their garden. ;)
I've hardly been online at all, as you can probably tell from my oh-so-frequent updates lately. I've been missing out on a whole bunch of stuff on the game, gone back to reading a little bit, and the rest of the time just spend staring into space. My brain's ticking loudly on the lower levels but I can't hear it yet.
P'raps more later. Need to run now. Be well.
So? I asked the SO if he might not want to fast-track our move into the new apartment instead of waiting out our month. He's feeling strain from not having a stable base and splitting time with TOH too. He thinks it might be a good idea. I think so too.
Bringing some boxes back into Van today; mom works out here and will transport back and forth. Stupidly left my purse at TOH before I left for here this morning. Lots more running around to get it, aaargh!
I write in telegrams when I'm in a hurry. Can you see it?
Weird progress on the relationship front. I don't know if it's being supported in this stuff that did it or if it's a natural relationship step, but TOW and the Juggler seem to be breaking through into my weird trust issues. I'm acting like a nutcase and keeping them up until weird hours of the night talking about it. They say it's no problem... I reserve judgement.
It's oddly reassuring, though. I may be a nutcase, but I'm a familiar nutcase. This part of me I've been through, I understand, it isn't something completely new and unknown like the stuff that's been coming at me for months. I need to be careful about the quick scorn I offer myself for these emotions, but I also need to be careful not to cling too them too tightly simply because they're familiar. Familiar things are in very short supply right now.
I borrowed the Juggler's digital camera today and managed some pictures of the deck before the battery died. A couple are going in my resume package, but I expect to take up _locke's offer and dsplay a couple here, too. It's sad to be dismantling the garden... I really should start on the one at TOH now that their closing date's past and they own the house.
Relationship? What relationship? I'm just using them for their garden. ;)
I've hardly been online at all, as you can probably tell from my oh-so-frequent updates lately. I've been missing out on a whole bunch of stuff on the game, gone back to reading a little bit, and the rest of the time just spend staring into space. My brain's ticking loudly on the lower levels but I can't hear it yet.
P'raps more later. Need to run now. Be well.
