Emerging/Dissection
Jul. 21st, 2008 08:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormI've been throwing tantrums lately.
I've been not liking things lately.
I've been getting angry at Angus -- albeit sort of cautiously, and not usually about things that are his fault, which I know. I've been expressing that, sometimes appropriately, sometimes less so.
I've been not wanting to sleep with people. I've been getting pissy at people who don't respect my boundaries. I've been *feeling* my boundaries, knowing when they are trespassed upon.
I'm turning into a more solid human being, and as with every piece of growth, I need to learn how to handle this 'more-ness' of me. How do I deal with a Greenie with a full emotional spectrum? How do I deal with a Greenie who says no, who has 'just friends'? How do I move in the world like this? How do I interact socially? How do I interact with myself?
It's pretty interesting. It's good. It's rough sometimes.
I don't like doing damage to innocent bystanders while I learn. That is both the empathic person and the perfectionist in me crying out against this piece of learning. I'm doing it anyhow.
This is a statement of power.
I've been not liking things lately.
I've been getting angry at Angus -- albeit sort of cautiously, and not usually about things that are his fault, which I know. I've been expressing that, sometimes appropriately, sometimes less so.
I've been not wanting to sleep with people. I've been getting pissy at people who don't respect my boundaries. I've been *feeling* my boundaries, knowing when they are trespassed upon.
I'm turning into a more solid human being, and as with every piece of growth, I need to learn how to handle this 'more-ness' of me. How do I deal with a Greenie with a full emotional spectrum? How do I deal with a Greenie who says no, who has 'just friends'? How do I move in the world like this? How do I interact socially? How do I interact with myself?
It's pretty interesting. It's good. It's rough sometimes.
I don't like doing damage to innocent bystanders while I learn. That is both the empathic person and the perfectionist in me crying out against this piece of learning. I'm doing it anyhow.
This is a statement of power.
