greenstorm | Change of Plan (Reply)

I had about half a meditation on poly written out before I got to work, then my new shiny device ate it. I've been thinking a bunch about my current situation lately, and wrestling some of the details into clarity with Angus.

When he and I first started dating I offered (for the first time in my life, I think) to do the monogamous thing. Angus said (hear my heart sink) 'no, seeing other people seems fun'. Since that time I've become enmeshed in a web of friends and (much smaller) of lovers that are, no surprise, pretty important to me. During that time, too, both he and I have grown tons- we're boh much more realized individuals than we were.

And now we're pinning it down with a lease and I'm like, ok, what am I DOING? What do I want out of this, what should it look like, if it's gonna close someday (perhaps always the plan) how will that be forme and what will the relationship need for me to be happy with that?

It's complicated by a couple things, not limited to my inexperience with monogamy and Angus' continually-worse chronic illness.

I guess everone deals with this in a partnership-type relationship; how important can people be, how important can work be, how do you keep pointed in similar directions. On top of that there's the extra poly ride.

So I was writing about that when my phone ate the post. Then I learned it's a bad thrips year at work (pests run in cycles, often every seven years, all across the continent in unconnected buildings, and thrips are the hardest to control except maybe for scale) and then on my way home I remembered that mynew neighborhood is a permaculture paradise.

So now I'm writing to inform you that there are chestnuts as street trees in my neighborhood, people grow broccoli on their apartment decks, and there's a food forest with a view half a block from me in a community garden.

Which leadsme to wonder: how many of you would have any interest in a permaculture tour/lesson if I were to host one sometime?

So busy lately! The days are all running together so it feels either like time isn't passing or like everyhing is happening simultaneously. Lookin forward to mid-April.

Nothing here, damned device