Another Morning, Another Post
Jun. 27th, 2004 10:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstorm...well, that hardly seems inevitable given how I'm posting lately. Anyhow. What's up?
Spent some nice time with Trevor last night, and some nice time with the Juggler the... well, not the night before that, but yesterday. I am never, never going to date anyone in software development of any kind again except on an entirely casual basis. Remind me of this if I get optimistic and start talking about someone like that. It doesn't work.
What else? Well, I'm going to the Vanpoly retreat this weekend, as in, the one coming up. I can tell I'm busy when I start compressing time like that, skipping over the next couple of days because they're full so that it becomes 'this weekend' on a Sunday. I have work and possibly moving in there somewhere. The retreat will be a welcome break. It's important that I bring a hammock and a cooler, and that I spend time in the hot tub.
I'm such a stressbucket right now. That's one of the guy's terms. We're trying sort of round 2 of doing things like a group with me, the Juggler, Mouse, and sometimes the guy. I get really paranoid about it. I really don't understand how everyone can want it to work and then it doesn't. I mean, I need challenges, yeah -- and just going through with this stuff is my biggest challenge right now, because I'm so afraid that if I walk into something like this it'll blow up.
There's a brunch today to discuss the possibility of us going to Clinton. That's all, a couple of hours at most. Funny thing to be scared of, right?
Hm. There's more interesting sex stuff to put in here, but again I won't. It's weird, I very rarely have the feeling that my journal is a public forum, but once in awhile I do. Making it friends-only would only make it worse. It's a case where I need a non-friends-only thing , or maybe I should private-journal it? Oh, well. Date's marked now, for future reference.
I'm catching up on my sleep, I'm enjoying the game (http://www.livejournal.com/users/merielle is a logbook for my RP with a new char I have. Almost empty now, but it'll fill up over time) although I don't have much time for it. I'm trying to eat enough, and also thinking about things I can eat at the retreat.
I've forgotten how to be still and quiet. I miss that. I need to re-learn, but I'm not putting in the energy to do so.
I think that's about it for now. Take care, and until next time.
Spent some nice time with Trevor last night, and some nice time with the Juggler the... well, not the night before that, but yesterday. I am never, never going to date anyone in software development of any kind again except on an entirely casual basis. Remind me of this if I get optimistic and start talking about someone like that. It doesn't work.
What else? Well, I'm going to the Vanpoly retreat this weekend, as in, the one coming up. I can tell I'm busy when I start compressing time like that, skipping over the next couple of days because they're full so that it becomes 'this weekend' on a Sunday. I have work and possibly moving in there somewhere. The retreat will be a welcome break. It's important that I bring a hammock and a cooler, and that I spend time in the hot tub.
I'm such a stressbucket right now. That's one of the guy's terms. We're trying sort of round 2 of doing things like a group with me, the Juggler, Mouse, and sometimes the guy. I get really paranoid about it. I really don't understand how everyone can want it to work and then it doesn't. I mean, I need challenges, yeah -- and just going through with this stuff is my biggest challenge right now, because I'm so afraid that if I walk into something like this it'll blow up.
There's a brunch today to discuss the possibility of us going to Clinton. That's all, a couple of hours at most. Funny thing to be scared of, right?
Hm. There's more interesting sex stuff to put in here, but again I won't. It's weird, I very rarely have the feeling that my journal is a public forum, but once in awhile I do. Making it friends-only would only make it worse. It's a case where I need a non-friends-only thing , or maybe I should private-journal it? Oh, well. Date's marked now, for future reference.
I'm catching up on my sleep, I'm enjoying the game (http://www.livejournal.com/users/merielle is a logbook for my RP with a new char I have. Almost empty now, but it'll fill up over time) although I don't have much time for it. I'm trying to eat enough, and also thinking about things I can eat at the retreat.
I've forgotten how to be still and quiet. I miss that. I need to re-learn, but I'm not putting in the energy to do so.
I think that's about it for now. Take care, and until next time.
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Date: 2004-06-27 10:30 pm (UTC)You may wish to consult with him on how much he is comfortable with having aired on LJ, as he is very sensitive to what he perceives as privacy violations (yes I know these could be understood as something other than 'privacy violations' and that you do not intend them as such, but he may see things differently).
LJ, btw, is another area in which I believe we *both* behave with overt and flirtatious sexuality -- I know I do it a lot (although I think I rarely talk about my own specific sex acts -- I believe I generally talk about sex in the abstract and make flirtatious references to things I'm wearing/not wearing/may be wearing in the future/etc).