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greenstormStill -30C out. This weather is just not breaking, it's going on and on and on. I'm still bucketing water from the house for the animals because the outside tap is extra not working. Apparently you can get aneurysms in your fingers from bucketing too much, so I'm being careful to wear gloves etc. So far everyone seems ok: one piglet with a bit of frostnip on one ear (it's swollen, but re-warmed; could also have been crushed) and a little bit of frostbite on some muscovy webs but everyone is walking ok.
I did my adaptive seeds order today; my heritage harvest order was done a couple weeks ago. I also ordered my seed potatoes from Eagle Creek seed potatoes, some true potato seeds from cultivariable, and some odds and ends from here and there. I need to wrap up my trades and my corn. I need to not get more tomato seeds.
I think I'll do a wall calendar with indoor and outdoor planting dates this year. It would be a nice object to look at. I'm a little concerned-- the full moon is June 14th this year. Our last frost is usually June 1stish, give or take, and the full moon is usually the coldest point. So we could have a last frost as late as June 14th this year. I definitely need to plan for that.
Everything has felt overwhelming. I'm back at work but I'm having enormous amounts of trouble with PDA resistance to arbitrary work structures; I need to deal with the university and structured courses and super arbitrary bureaucracy there; I need to handle refinancing on my house (every 5 years in Canada, so I can't dodge it). For all of that I need to be available constantly to receive calls at the convenience of the organizations, I can't really get my teeth sunk into doing anything because I'm always waiting for a back-and-forth, and there are tons of other folks to wait on/that I need things from. Plus just... so much busywork.
I think I'm hitting a point in this burnout where I need help. Specifically I need someone who knows something about PDA and can help me strategize my way through it all because I need to get out the other side. Those people primarily don't exist, when they do exist they seem to be primarily in the UK, and the one set of folks here is well beyond my budget.
I had hoped to reduce my pig herd by now to give me a little space and time away from chores but that didn't happen and now it's just another thing on the pile of multi-step things to do. I had hoped-- bah. I give up.
I'll probably come up with a structured list later and start eating away at it but right now I'm just buckling under the weight of the whole thing. I hate feeling like I'm reacting to things left last minute instead of being proactive.
I'll sit here and feel frustrated for a couple more minutes, then I'll go get myself a nice cup of tea.
I did my adaptive seeds order today; my heritage harvest order was done a couple weeks ago. I also ordered my seed potatoes from Eagle Creek seed potatoes, some true potato seeds from cultivariable, and some odds and ends from here and there. I need to wrap up my trades and my corn. I need to not get more tomato seeds.
I think I'll do a wall calendar with indoor and outdoor planting dates this year. It would be a nice object to look at. I'm a little concerned-- the full moon is June 14th this year. Our last frost is usually June 1stish, give or take, and the full moon is usually the coldest point. So we could have a last frost as late as June 14th this year. I definitely need to plan for that.
Everything has felt overwhelming. I'm back at work but I'm having enormous amounts of trouble with PDA resistance to arbitrary work structures; I need to deal with the university and structured courses and super arbitrary bureaucracy there; I need to handle refinancing on my house (every 5 years in Canada, so I can't dodge it). For all of that I need to be available constantly to receive calls at the convenience of the organizations, I can't really get my teeth sunk into doing anything because I'm always waiting for a back-and-forth, and there are tons of other folks to wait on/that I need things from. Plus just... so much busywork.
I think I'm hitting a point in this burnout where I need help. Specifically I need someone who knows something about PDA and can help me strategize my way through it all because I need to get out the other side. Those people primarily don't exist, when they do exist they seem to be primarily in the UK, and the one set of folks here is well beyond my budget.
I had hoped to reduce my pig herd by now to give me a little space and time away from chores but that didn't happen and now it's just another thing on the pile of multi-step things to do. I had hoped-- bah. I give up.
I'll probably come up with a structured list later and start eating away at it but right now I'm just buckling under the weight of the whole thing. I hate feeling like I'm reacting to things left last minute instead of being proactive.
I'll sit here and feel frustrated for a couple more minutes, then I'll go get myself a nice cup of tea.
