Bah

[greenstorm]

I slept last night, all night, for the first time in-- a month or two? I woke up with that kind of boneless feeling and had to lie there for several minutes before I could be sure I wouldn't fall over if I got up. It used to be normal for me to sleep long and deeply, though it's never been normal for me to take time waking up.

Today is the doctor's visit I scheduled six weeks ago, because she was booking six weeks out. I don't remember why I made it. I guess I'll talk to her about autism and choose a random body thing. It'll be my first time talking about autism to a professional doctor type, I guess. I should probably be prepared with the differences between autistic burnout and depression, but I'm not sure how much I care about anything today.

I'm still tired, as happens when you start to catch up just a little on sleep.

I just want the next two months to be over. What would have to happen for me to want to be present in them? I think I need to meditate on that question a little. I can't make it happen otherwise.

Comments

[graydon2]

Sleep is the best. I hope you can get more.

next two months to be over

Is two months away the moving-point?

[greenstorm]

Sleep is most assuredly not the best, it just gives me ability to do the good parts.

Goodness knows at this point. I thought so as of this writing, but now I'm thinking it's going to take a little longer to get a robust financial plan in place. Sigh.