Developments
May. 30th, 2022 06:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Ah, there it is. I don't see the pattern yet but I've found the things that will require boundary-setting and careful navigating in this new thing.
This is somewhat uncharted waters for me; I'm in a society that behaves very differently from how I might want or expect it to. It's not as easy to interpret behaviours as I might like. There's a whole bunch of stuff I can't just ask about -- I will speak freely with anyone I'm in relationship with and that's not something I'll compromise on, but there's a whole bunch of stuff when speaking with other involved monogamous people that requires a very light touch and interpretation. I'm also running very low on sleep and it's starting to hit me.
This will be a good week to feel out my boundaries and catch up on sleep. Good to talk to some friends and just land here, in this situation. My town is small and I'm intending to be here for awhile. I'll need to navigate situations like this particularly well since there's not the same alternative, as there is in the city, of just jettisoning folks if things go sideways. I mean, I'm not much for that anyways but deliberation and repair are so important here. Honestly I feel confident in my abilities, I just need to actually remember to use them.
What do I need? What does it look like to begin as I mean to continue?
I'm too tired to think my way out of a wet paper bag right now. That's probably the first thing to sort out.
This is somewhat uncharted waters for me; I'm in a society that behaves very differently from how I might want or expect it to. It's not as easy to interpret behaviours as I might like. There's a whole bunch of stuff I can't just ask about -- I will speak freely with anyone I'm in relationship with and that's not something I'll compromise on, but there's a whole bunch of stuff when speaking with other involved monogamous people that requires a very light touch and interpretation. I'm also running very low on sleep and it's starting to hit me.
This will be a good week to feel out my boundaries and catch up on sleep. Good to talk to some friends and just land here, in this situation. My town is small and I'm intending to be here for awhile. I'll need to navigate situations like this particularly well since there's not the same alternative, as there is in the city, of just jettisoning folks if things go sideways. I mean, I'm not much for that anyways but deliberation and repair are so important here. Honestly I feel confident in my abilities, I just need to actually remember to use them.
What do I need? What does it look like to begin as I mean to continue?
I'm too tired to think my way out of a wet paper bag right now. That's probably the first thing to sort out.