Morningtime.

[greenstorm]

So last night was hard. I stayed up late, and then I went to bed, and I could barely breathe. Everything was pain and anger, I could feel it like lightning over my skin. I wanted to bang my fists on the wall and howl. They've all left me, they've offered no support in doing so, and they dare to ask things of me even then? This really is nothing short of a betrayal of the integrity of my relationship with him for another woman. Ironic, no?

But, morning has come. I got through the night. I'll go to work, I'll go do things, I'll get through this. I hope it will not be as bad as last night ever again. He and I had sat there talking in that very bedm and he had left! You could almost feel the negative imprint of him, an absence...

But enough of that. I can't help thinking that we've both lost something, he and I. I didn't have a choice. Obviously it's worth it for him to lose.

:(

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hang in there

[hedge-wizard.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry you are feeling this pain. you have the right of it though. remember who you want to be (we rarely know who we really are right?) but remember who you want to be and you'll be fine.

hang in there,

hedge