greenstorm | Devotions

It doesn't seem to be covid.

I was most afraid of this, being here sick, weak, and tired with no one to help me. I survived a couple days of sleeping 18 hours a day and I'm still too weak to lift a full feed bag, but I'm clever enough to split the feed into several buckets to carry and it's still hose season so I don't need to carry water. It was fine. There are ways of being sick I couldn't handle but I made it through this one.

Today I had enough energy to get to the pharmacy for a covid test and even walk all the way to the chicken house 3 times. Tomorrow I might be able to make it up to the garden.

I'm still very grateful for the vacmop. My floors are at least not part of what's making me uncomfortable.

Past self made some interesting tomato crosses and I planted the seeds for those F1s today. Yesterday I pulled out some microdwarf tomato seeds and I planted those today too. I also made a list of the crosses I'm missing. I love my tomato work, and that is available to me even if I can't make it up to the garden.

A friend has offered to lend me his hydroponic setup so I can do more tomato and pepper breeding setup this winter. I'm super excited.

Tucker has been watching Elementary with me in the evenings, remotely. It's nice, when I'm too sick or tired to think, to still have a way of being companionable. At this point in my cycle I'm looking forward to seeing him.

I'm so glad I cleaned my sheets before I got sick. I've been spending a lot of time in this bed.

I'm grateful for Josh. He mentioned that he'd looked up declarative language that I'd mentioned as helpful for PDA and was trying to do that. <3 He also supported the idea that PDA is a real thing that explains my stuff when I was feeling a bit weird about it.

I'm grateful I've constructed a life where PDA can be such a low level hum that I can sometimes doubt it applies to me, at least some of the time.

I'm glad to think of my corn growing up there in my garden.

I'm also quite fond of all the little ducklings. There are many.

And that's the end of my energy. Be well, and goodnight.