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greenstormI kinda came out as "sick of some kind, with less capacity than my younger self expected at this time in my life" at work to my two cubicle neighbours (one has celiacs, one is my most common work partner) and the site manager today, in a discussion about why I don't have my credential yet.
My work partner was surprised, but I explained that I prioritize work and he seemed to understand. Folks were generally positive. Site manager had to chew on it a bit but circled around to encourage me later.
I feel like I'm going to throw up and like I want to hide. I wasn't asking for any accommodation or anything, just mentioned it and fielded a few questions.
Because in many interpersonal situations I don't view vulnerability as a big deal - if it's someone with no power over me and who I don't need to interact with, it lets people self-select away from me - I forget how hard it can be in a power dynamic relationship, in this case one that lets me keep my animals (and myself) fed and housed.
My work partner was surprised, but I explained that I prioritize work and he seemed to understand. Folks were generally positive. Site manager had to chew on it a bit but circled around to encourage me later.
I feel like I'm going to throw up and like I want to hide. I wasn't asking for any accommodation or anything, just mentioned it and fielded a few questions.
Because in many interpersonal situations I don't view vulnerability as a big deal - if it's someone with no power over me and who I don't need to interact with, it lets people self-select away from me - I forget how hard it can be in a power dynamic relationship, in this case one that lets me keep my animals (and myself) fed and housed.
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Date: 2023-07-28 04:13 am (UTC)