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greenstormThe mood is "devastated".
Not, barren of potential. Not, despairing. But devastated.
To lay waste; destroy ... to overwhelm, confound, stun....
This is the first time since that day three and a half months ago that I've felt really helpless; even grief , however strong, was simply an addition to my edifice of self. Now the helplessness brings it tumbling.
It's good for me, I know. I feel better now that I've placed it.
Not, barren of potential. Not, despairing. But devastated.
To lay waste; destroy ... to overwhelm, confound, stun....
This is the first time since that day three and a half months ago that I've felt really helpless; even grief , however strong, was simply an addition to my edifice of self. Now the helplessness brings it tumbling.
It's good for me, I know. I feel better now that I've placed it.
