Emotional Complificationating
Nov. 8th, 2004 04:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormYargh.
This one I can't even share on lj, I don't think, because there's too much privacy protection involved. Suffice it to say that even if a decision is logically right, that does not prevent it from being very, very difficult emotionally. Suffice it to say also that while in general I have no problems with hypocrisy, there are some sources from which it would hit me pretty hard.
Erk. Yargh. Prurph. Mmph.
Is it right to only call friends when you need them because you're all confused by the way the world works? And not, you know, more often when happy stuff is happening?
Oh, well.
In real news (ie, stuff that's happened rather than stuff I'm worrying about having to think about later) I had a pretty good weekend. Saturday was oddly social, and involved waking up at the Juggler's, seeing Spiderman II with Chris, and going for tea with Alan (who'd just broken up with someone the night before, jeeze, this is the fall of relationship death).
So you could say I had two pretty conventional dates yesterday, though of course that would be ignoring context.
Poppies are out. I'm working rememberance day, but I think I'd like to take some time and meditate and pray and stuff on a day either this coming weekend or next week. I'm pretty emotionally unsettled right now; maybe it'll subside, though, since I only had the shock yesterday morning.
The thing about the poppies they sell now is this: they have black centres. Black symbolises death, ending, etc. They used to have green centres, which to me symbolised eternal life (evergreen), hope, continuance: stuff like that. I think this is a bad omen. You?
Did some hardcore work on Chia, ICly. I own a tax minion character, so I'm going to go around taking people's money. Should help get me back into the swing of things.
This one I can't even share on lj, I don't think, because there's too much privacy protection involved. Suffice it to say that even if a decision is logically right, that does not prevent it from being very, very difficult emotionally. Suffice it to say also that while in general I have no problems with hypocrisy, there are some sources from which it would hit me pretty hard.
Erk. Yargh. Prurph. Mmph.
Is it right to only call friends when you need them because you're all confused by the way the world works? And not, you know, more often when happy stuff is happening?
Oh, well.
In real news (ie, stuff that's happened rather than stuff I'm worrying about having to think about later) I had a pretty good weekend. Saturday was oddly social, and involved waking up at the Juggler's, seeing Spiderman II with Chris, and going for tea with Alan (who'd just broken up with someone the night before, jeeze, this is the fall of relationship death).
So you could say I had two pretty conventional dates yesterday, though of course that would be ignoring context.
Poppies are out. I'm working rememberance day, but I think I'd like to take some time and meditate and pray and stuff on a day either this coming weekend or next week. I'm pretty emotionally unsettled right now; maybe it'll subside, though, since I only had the shock yesterday morning.
The thing about the poppies they sell now is this: they have black centres. Black symbolises death, ending, etc. They used to have green centres, which to me symbolised eternal life (evergreen), hope, continuance: stuff like that. I think this is a bad omen. You?
Did some hardcore work on Chia, ICly. I own a tax minion character, so I'm going to go around taking people's money. Should help get me back into the swing of things.
