Good Things.
Dec. 27th, 2004 08:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormIt's a good time of year. I wish you good things. :)
Today is a day off. I woke up this morning when I felt like it (7am) and now I have no plans for the day. I will probably eat, I may cook a chicken, I may go visit aquarium stores, I may not.
Last night I made a pretty profound decision in my relationship with the Juggler, which is kind of a scary thing for me. We call this sticking to my guns. It's weird how I can't tell the difference between things that "I want" and things that "I'm supposed to have or do because that's the cultural stereotype surrounding romantic relationships." In this case, I can't be his confidante on certain things simply because of the situation we're in together -- it would make me feel weird, and wouldn't make any other parties involved happy. I feel like I "should" be able to listen to all the things that bother him and comfort him, but back in the real world, I know I can't. The weird part is that I don't know what my emotional core wants out of this, because I can't seperate movie stuff out yet. We'll try this for awhile and see how I feel about it later just based on the strength of my brain telling me this is the right thing to do.
Be sure to watch Life of Brian and thus remember why we're supposed to be shopping this week.
Today is a day off. I woke up this morning when I felt like it (7am) and now I have no plans for the day. I will probably eat, I may cook a chicken, I may go visit aquarium stores, I may not.
Last night I made a pretty profound decision in my relationship with the Juggler, which is kind of a scary thing for me. We call this sticking to my guns. It's weird how I can't tell the difference between things that "I want" and things that "I'm supposed to have or do because that's the cultural stereotype surrounding romantic relationships." In this case, I can't be his confidante on certain things simply because of the situation we're in together -- it would make me feel weird, and wouldn't make any other parties involved happy. I feel like I "should" be able to listen to all the things that bother him and comfort him, but back in the real world, I know I can't. The weird part is that I don't know what my emotional core wants out of this, because I can't seperate movie stuff out yet. We'll try this for awhile and see how I feel about it later just based on the strength of my brain telling me this is the right thing to do.
Be sure to watch Life of Brian and thus remember why we're supposed to be shopping this week.
What ELSE has Rome given us, aside from the Aquaduct? ;)
Date: 2005-01-01 06:54 am (UTC)Alf