Egad!

I will try to act like a grown-up in this situation. I will not take toys from others just because I don't have my own. I will not try and make other people feel bad just because I do and it's hard to see them happy in contrast. I will not make what people recieve from me dependent on what I recieve in turn, either from them or anyone. I'm big enough for this.

It's Hard Sometimes.

There are reasons to keep going, though. Interestingly, I think this is the closest I've ever been to being single since I was fifteen or so, though nominally I have three relationships and in a couple of weeks I might possibly have something along the lines of a primary-ish of some sort. Before then I should probably figure out exactly what I want, hm?

babboo was saying in a comment that he thought it was interesting how I referred to my pets as relationships. They are, as are my major hobbgies (vandusen and gardening), my work, and my friendships. They're things that I juggle my time and attention amongst, and I also juggle the demands of time and energy they make upon me.

If a romantic relationship goes belly-up, it's important to have a bunch of other relationships of some kind. Sometimes those are romantic/capital-R relationships. Sometimes it's not. I've got enough of those to keep me going.

I don't want anything to go belly-up, though. :/ I do worry that it will, but bah! I don't even know how likely that is. It's only likely on my side, I know. I'm the unknown quantity. *sigh*

Need to compile that list of what I want out of my romantic relationships. Not tonight, though. Maybe... Thursday night.

_greenwitch_, I'll see you tomorrow. Estry, I might try and give you a call before Friday actually, need to check something with the people here though before I do.