Peace?

You know, my life feels peaceful again. That is, in general I can count on things to happen in a mildly predictable fashion, my emotions are relatively under control, there are few storms or tentrums or whirlwinds. I'm really relishing it -- the most drama in my life now is related to some online stuff at Chia. I talk to people I like. I read books. I take people on VanDusen tours. I slug around or I cook. I do dishes. I tell my rats they are cute. Who'da thunk?

In part, I think the heavily emotional RP on Chia is draining my emotional energy in a positive way. My character feels very strongly about, for instance, her husband beginning a civil war. That takes the edge off immediate emotional reactions that I normally have to stuff. I think in part the weather being better these last two days has helped me a bit, and I think that taking control of that stuff in my relationship-life has helped as well.

I feel perspective not as an annoying ironic thing that's always hanging there, but a flow of which I am part.

I've noticed that I hit a bad point two days after my dates with the Juggler, however, and since I saw him last night I'm observing to see what happens. I'm trying to see/talk to him for about ten minutes near that bad point, to see if it heads it off.

Lately when he and I are together, the perspective has been too much. None of us wants to talk much, or we talk only about inconsequentials. Right now, what else is there to say? That, too, is pretty refreshing as a piece of things, though as the whole overall it'd suck.