Wheee.

I got home tired enough, last night, to fall asleep on a chocolate bar at 4:30 am. I woke up this morning to this liquid squishy thing in a plastic wrapper under me.

Back a step: last night was Beth's awesome party. Now, I don't usually go to parties, but this one may've changed my mind if she holds another one. There was a good mix of people I knew and didn't know, there were fun things to do like dress people up in costumes, there was excellent food, there was an interlude playing Red Rover in the park, there was conversation, there were snugglies and backrubs. There was Beth herself, which is always a bonus. I got to whack people on the bottom with my cane, which is always wonderful.

Of course, this means I haven't slept much. Bah. All I do today is VanDusen, luckily. Tomorrow evening is fireworks, Thurd Evening is Devon + Tillie, Friday evening I'm working relatively late-- all that means that today is my free-time day for the next little while. I wanna spend it sleeping and eating.

Angus, hope you're feeling better today.

I think food and then more sleep is in order.

Mmmrr.

to be kissed by Marty McConnell

if honeysuckle were skin it would smell like me
but I am seawater
and cloud-dust on your tongue --
my mother's luminous shadow, father's
fallow orbit, I sweat medicine
and the fears of women whose desperate acts of faith
earned them fading places in forgotten albums
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I shimmy quiver shriek
laugh in bathtubs cry on streetcorners
I'm only trying to convince myself
I am not afraid

The Things I Miss...

...Illuminares and the Folk Fest are on the same weekend. Illuminares is pretty cool.

http://goldengod.net/video/illuminares/Quinton%20Steals%20Fire.mov is a video where Navi tries vainly to capture come of the coolness of Illuminares for posterity, including Angus breathing fire a lot near the end, a whole bunch of fire stuff, and people I know chatting in the background.

I Love You All

Hah. I do need to post that at least once a month. When I don't I'm in dire shape. There are really a ton of hugely diverse, highly wonderful and interesting people out there, and I get to experience so many of you in all these cool ways, be it lj or in person or over the phone or even just as a little awareness tucked away waiting to blossom into contact again. A bunch of you are having rough times (it's split a little in favour of people having sucky times, some others of you are really happy, which is so good to see) and I wish I could do something about that. Generally I can't, but my thoughts do go out to you guys. Erm, if there is something I can do, let me know or something. I can be very distracting if I really wanna be.

This actually is on a seperate note, but it does sometimes help with the feeling better thing (jeeze, I'm happy-cheerful-robot today or something)

http://www.masturbateforpeace.com/

If I keep writing, I'll end up in a church-style shout-out about all y'all, so I'll stop. But! You must be well.

Wait, No...

...I sat down to say that I've been hugely social lately, and I'm happy, and I've slowed down before I burnt out. Tonight the idea's to come home, to make dinner, to do laundry and get ready for tomorrow... you know, do life-stuff again. I'm amazed that I'm not burnt out on the social thing, but it's prolly the three days of nonphysical contact back in there. I'm amazed that I'm not missing Juggler like crazy, and I am missing him, but I'm feeling pretty sane/anticipatory about it instead of insane/lonely/incomplete. Yesterday I got people to wear my clothing, and that was very cool. Today I have happy memories and that's cool too.

My happy memories from the party are:

o Beth all pretty in her green gown, once with her gown kilted up as she ran really fast across the field looking fierce to try and break through the Red Rover line (hot) and once half-asleep with a green rose and a shell falling out of her hair as she stood by the kitchen sink

o Angus presenting his butt to my cane (I almost fainted), and playing with his pretty hair

o Everyone in my pink fairy princess dress. It looked fantastic

o Reina holding a stuffed animal and chewing on her thumb, apparently unconsciously, in a fantastic imitation of a three-year-old

o Ryan in my skirt and the corset, and tickling him. Do you know how long it'd been since I tickled someone?

o Jhayne saying nice things to me in a hug when she was dropped off for the night

o Pouring water on Andrew. Repeatedly

o Chatting with Eugene in the car while we were picking up Angus' laptop. He's got an interesting story in there, and I'm intrigued at the little dribbles of it that I get

o Talking to Beth's mom and realising that other people have cool parents with close relationships with them too

o The fight-club guy from upstairs, who totally outclassed me in a verbal battle (I need to apologise to him) even though I took him at first for a standard drinkin' smokin' partier.

o Backrubs from Andrew even though I was mean to him, and from Tyler

o Meeting people I didn't know, who could make intelligent conversation, and who seemed interesting, thus reminding me that people are in fact cool

You know, I could go on and on, but I really do need food.

Mmmr.

Call from Juggler and a wonderful dinner with mom, including two types of food I've never had before (very small birds and a dessert that was basically a sweet adzuki bean gruel) round out the evening.

Juggler says, "how are you?" and I say, "totally wonderful." He says, "this is the fifth time in a row you've said that when I ask."

Fuck, yeah.