Shambhala To-Do And Train Of Thought
Aug. 2nd, 2006 11:25 pmTo do/bring:
-Tillie's camp stove, pasta, sauce
-Minimum 6l Yu rice milk, chocolate & vanilla
-2l 'matcha' mix
-Assorted clothing
-Tent
-Waterwaterwater, containers for water
-Electrolyte mix
-Assorted clothing
-Sleeping bag
-Extra blanket
-Facepaint
-Mirror
-Contact stuff
-Soap
-Toothbrush
-Dried fruit
-Sunscreen
-Toilet paper?
-Hat
*check with Tim about campsites vs parking locations
*check with Tim about nudity (partial/full)
*think of something nice for feet
With that, the train of thought is gone. Something about love and peace, as you may expect right now. I still feel really peaceful, even with hormonal omg-this-may-be-a-relationship freakout of yesterday (which was rather mild as past freakouts have gone for me, but intense-feeling anyhow). I'm defining my place for myself by my actions, rather than following the actions of others too much, and I like it a lot. I'm also coming from a place of equality rather than unbalanced neediness in my interactions with people, and it's been a long time since that's happened to me, if indeed it has since I started dating. I seem to be entering a less social phase right now, which is fine with me. I hope everyone understands, and doesn't take it too personally, ut it could also be looked upon as a winnowing process I suppose. I've always been cyclic, and look! Here's a cycle! It's at times like this when I love my friends more than ever-- Tillie and CrazyChris, for example, are just like this and so they do understand it, and that understanding is precious to me, and Trevor and I have always been this way and so I am fearless with him.
This is relatively incoherent, and so I'm going to sleep now and leaving it alone. Be well. I may give the reductionist but oddly compelling cast of characters list another shot soon.
-Tillie's camp stove, pasta, sauce
-Minimum 6l Yu rice milk, chocolate & vanilla
-2l 'matcha' mix
-Assorted clothing
-Tent
-Waterwaterwater, containers for water
-Electrolyte mix
-Assorted clothing
-Sleeping bag
-Extra blanket
-Facepaint
-Mirror
-Contact stuff
-Soap
-Toothbrush
-Dried fruit
-Sunscreen
-Toilet paper?
-Hat
*check with Tim about campsites vs parking locations
*check with Tim about nudity (partial/full)
*think of something nice for feet
With that, the train of thought is gone. Something about love and peace, as you may expect right now. I still feel really peaceful, even with hormonal omg-this-may-be-a-relationship freakout of yesterday (which was rather mild as past freakouts have gone for me, but intense-feeling anyhow). I'm defining my place for myself by my actions, rather than following the actions of others too much, and I like it a lot. I'm also coming from a place of equality rather than unbalanced neediness in my interactions with people, and it's been a long time since that's happened to me, if indeed it has since I started dating. I seem to be entering a less social phase right now, which is fine with me. I hope everyone understands, and doesn't take it too personally, ut it could also be looked upon as a winnowing process I suppose. I've always been cyclic, and look! Here's a cycle! It's at times like this when I love my friends more than ever-- Tillie and CrazyChris, for example, are just like this and so they do understand it, and that understanding is precious to me, and Trevor and I have always been this way and so I am fearless with him.
This is relatively incoherent, and so I'm going to sleep now and leaving it alone. Be well. I may give the reductionist but oddly compelling cast of characters list another shot soon.