It's 3am, I Must Be Lonely?
Mar. 30th, 2008 03:23 amI was going to go out again and go dancing but instead Anthony came over and the hailstorm of the apocalypse made its way up to my house. White was singing down out of the sky, with hailstones bouncing down the chimney, so I did the only thing I could think of: I lit a fire in the fireplace, pulled the mattress up in front of it, and turned out all the lights. Fell asleep snuggling and trading massages till he woke to go home. Much nicer than going outside in this slushy white mess that's sitting around.
Snuggling makes me so happy, and it's amazing to me how, if I don't put the sex energy into something, it doesn't come out at me. I mean, I used to be received that way by everyone but it seems that's because it was what I was putting out. It was the way I was approached because that's how I approached everyone. Now? People can be just friends-- it's not like I'm sitting here fighting the tide to try and turn things into a different channel. Who knew? I mean, seriously, who knew?
I'm so glad to be getting physical contact again. I missed it and it is good for me. Thanks, all y'all. You know who you are.
Still zero interest in sex with anyone available to me but not minding it any.
Paul says there were a bunch of people having crises tonight. I was so not one of them, nor was I hanging out with any of them. It was all peace here. What a treat!
...though man am I hungry, and I don't feel like sloshing out for pho right now somehow. Oh well. Ice cream and patience.
Snuggling makes me so happy, and it's amazing to me how, if I don't put the sex energy into something, it doesn't come out at me. I mean, I used to be received that way by everyone but it seems that's because it was what I was putting out. It was the way I was approached because that's how I approached everyone. Now? People can be just friends-- it's not like I'm sitting here fighting the tide to try and turn things into a different channel. Who knew? I mean, seriously, who knew?
I'm so glad to be getting physical contact again. I missed it and it is good for me. Thanks, all y'all. You know who you are.
Still zero interest in sex with anyone available to me but not minding it any.
Paul says there were a bunch of people having crises tonight. I was so not one of them, nor was I hanging out with any of them. It was all peace here. What a treat!
...though man am I hungry, and I don't feel like sloshing out for pho right now somehow. Oh well. Ice cream and patience.