It's done. I cried going under the anaesthetic and I cried coming out -- the anesthetologist came to see me afterwards and make sure I was ok, he had an amazing bedside manner. But it was just that for that little window of time, when I was in the operating room, after the injected the anaesthetic and before I fell asleep, and then before I could move my body again afterwards, I was taken care of. I could set everything down for just a minute. I don't often get that luxury and it's intense for me.
He listened and showed me a picture of his cow and pup when I mentioned my farm. It was good.
Then I was driven home and now I'm just sitting, a little nervous about trying to put food in me.
Feelings are just more intense for me generally, I guess. Life is always a lot. There's a sensory aspect and also a responsibility aspect. I'm good at moving my mind away from those things but they're still present.
I'm going to avoid using the stove today, but I'm going to put some rice and some goose confit in the rice cooker and top it with chili crisp when it comes out. That sounds like food that won't burn down the house, no?
Good chat with J on the way up and down too. He has enough biology background that he can understand concepts like, you can't do selection if there's no diversity/variation from which to select.
Probably gonna take me a bit to get up and get that rice cooker out. Maybe I should try a sip of tea or something in the meantime.
He listened and showed me a picture of his cow and pup when I mentioned my farm. It was good.
Then I was driven home and now I'm just sitting, a little nervous about trying to put food in me.
Feelings are just more intense for me generally, I guess. Life is always a lot. There's a sensory aspect and also a responsibility aspect. I'm good at moving my mind away from those things but they're still present.
I'm going to avoid using the stove today, but I'm going to put some rice and some goose confit in the rice cooker and top it with chili crisp when it comes out. That sounds like food that won't burn down the house, no?
Good chat with J on the way up and down too. He has enough biology background that he can understand concepts like, you can't do selection if there's no diversity/variation from which to select.
Probably gonna take me a bit to get up and get that rice cooker out. Maybe I should try a sip of tea or something in the meantime.