What Does It Say...

[greenstorm]

...that reading the stories I wrote, back then, about my favourite character, makes me cry now?

I've lived with her for years now, since March 2001, though there have been whole years when I haven't played her. She's hit the 'number of maturity' for her race now, she's technically through puberty. She's had her first relationship, first job, first sex, first business of her own, all that, and now she's settling into something very comfortable to her.

She always echoed my life with Kynnin; a month before anything would happen in my relationship with him, it happened in her relationship with her boyfriend. It's eerie; perhaps we call this a testing-ground, this roleplay.

She's a joy in my life, and I'm saying this almost entirely because I'm sure some of you think I'm not supposed to. This is not a seperate person, who exists outside of myself. It's not me, exactly. It's a creation of mine into which life has been breathed, so that she responds behenath my fingers, for whatever reason, as if she were her own creature. I love this. I love following a storyline this long; it's never happened outside of roleplay to me who reads two novels on a slow day. This detailed interweaving, this constant source of surprise, this makes me so happy.

Comments

[wik.livejournal.com]

I really wish I could have kept Carduus through my own personal transformation. It would really be fun to see where he is now. Ah well, I'm just going to have to try the balancing act of PC/NPC with Seale and see where it takes me.

But I agree, it's really been a pleasure to see Volaya change, as a reflection of your own life.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

You've known me, and thus her, longest, over there. :)

Volaya

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

I'm not *too* far behind him though, on that list. ;) I always enjoyed the QS-Volaya dynamic. They had a sort of affectionate uncertainty of what to do with each other. Then again, so do you and I, now and then. :)

Re: Volaya

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

It's true. You weren't active enough, at the time, to count on my list of 'people who are still there'.

Volanta's really known her the longest, but...

Re: Volaya

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

It's true. You weren't active enough, at the time, to count on my list of 'people who are still there'.

Volanta's really known her the longest, but...

But yeah.

It's odd, sometimes. I predate probably 70% of the people who are there now. But when Sanctuary/Concordance blew up, pretty much everything I affected at all went with it. Except a few characters that are still around, and still bear elements of their interactions with me. Most of the characters that were close to me left/idled before I stopped playing regularly. You included, for a time.

Re: Volaya

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Oh yes. This was such a non-computer summer.