Sleep-Optional
Aug. 19th, 2003 04:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormWe can tell I'm all well again by the way that, when I go to sleep before 3am, I wake up around 3 or 3:30 all alert and need to spend a couple of hours doing things. Then I go back to sleep and curl up with the SO when he gets home for an hour or two. This is the theory, at least.
Sometimes I end up just staying up, which isn't so great.
Looks like I'll be going over to Estrellada's on either Wed. or Thurs. night. It'll be nice to get out of my little four-person clump and breathe wider for a bit. I should think about bringing the air mattress, though, now that I have the Uber Duffelbag. It would fit...
Before that there's a garden to water in the morning, some green curry to make up tomorrow, dishes to do, more of Naomi Campbell's Misconceptions to think through (I'm occupied in taking in the information and looking at what I think about it, not accepting her stuff whole cloth. It isn't too hard, with her, but with some books it can be), repotting to do... I should call Kyle, as well. I haven't heard from him in awhile.
I think I also need to take myself out to dinner and maybe the swings at Stanley Park, maybe the day after I'm at Esty's. I don't feel the need to surround myself constantly with people, and it even gets a little suffocating to have anyone at all around sometimes. I need to get to know the new me too, not just them.
And I like going to the park and sitting on the swings and beating the kids to bar-level and watching the beach. It's just nice. It's a Greenstorm-type thing to do.
When I was younger, fourteen or maybe even ten or twelve, my favourite cousin came to visit. He picked up a rock and carried it around, turning it over in his hands until it was smooth and very warm. He gave it to me and I kept doing the same, and we passed it back and forth on that trip between us. It was like a solid metaphor for caring, for being close to another human in a solid connected way.
It really does feel like I've got that rock in me right now, or I am that rock. I hope this lasts. I really do. It is so, so new to me.
Take care.
Sometimes I end up just staying up, which isn't so great.
Looks like I'll be going over to Estrellada's on either Wed. or Thurs. night. It'll be nice to get out of my little four-person clump and breathe wider for a bit. I should think about bringing the air mattress, though, now that I have the Uber Duffelbag. It would fit...
Before that there's a garden to water in the morning, some green curry to make up tomorrow, dishes to do, more of Naomi Campbell's Misconceptions to think through (I'm occupied in taking in the information and looking at what I think about it, not accepting her stuff whole cloth. It isn't too hard, with her, but with some books it can be), repotting to do... I should call Kyle, as well. I haven't heard from him in awhile.
I think I also need to take myself out to dinner and maybe the swings at Stanley Park, maybe the day after I'm at Esty's. I don't feel the need to surround myself constantly with people, and it even gets a little suffocating to have anyone at all around sometimes. I need to get to know the new me too, not just them.
And I like going to the park and sitting on the swings and beating the kids to bar-level and watching the beach. It's just nice. It's a Greenstorm-type thing to do.
When I was younger, fourteen or maybe even ten or twelve, my favourite cousin came to visit. He picked up a rock and carried it around, turning it over in his hands until it was smooth and very warm. He gave it to me and I kept doing the same, and we passed it back and forth on that trip between us. It was like a solid metaphor for caring, for being close to another human in a solid connected way.
It really does feel like I've got that rock in me right now, or I am that rock. I hope this lasts. I really do. It is so, so new to me.
Take care.
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Date: 2003-08-19 11:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-19 04:18 pm (UTC)I think I got that right?
This is an important time. Listen to your belly, the base of your spine, the place between your shoulder blades, the palms of your hands and the soles of your feet.
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Date: 2003-08-19 10:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-19 10:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-20 03:57 am (UTC)But I'd have to double-check with a dictionary or Babelfish.
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Date: 2003-08-20 04:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-22 01:08 am (UTC)