Huh.

[greenstorm]

Okay. So the thing that's been bothering me is money stuff. Big or little, money stuff is a huge, huge, The One, The Only big hotbutton headkiller issue for me. It's big.

So I was having nightmares, last night, about a pizza I hadn't ordered arriving for me, delivery, and me not having the cash to pay for it. Sounds pretty minor, right? But it's all tied up with nightmare feeling, and ties into my money issues.

So then tonight I'm coming home from play rehearsal, right before which something happened to press my money/stress buttons pretty bad, and I'm waiting for the bus. There's a guy sitting at the bus stop prank-calling his friends. What is he saying? "Hello, this is Dominoes pizza, we have your pizza here, could you come down and get it?" and that sort of thing. He does this for the entire fifteen minutes we're waiting for the bus. Then he does it for the ten-minute bus ride, until I get off the bus to get to my house.

For fuck's sake, this is a little too surreal for my liking. You know that being-tapped-in-a-nightmare feeling?

Comments

[silverseastar.livejournal.com]

Wow, that's really creepy.

*hugs*

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

It really is, actually. I am reminded to look up the bigirls site now. What is the url again?

[silverseastar.livejournal.com]

The yahoo group is bigirlsvancouver or BGV. The website is bigirlsvancouver.com .

[hundun.livejournal.com]

Dreams are spooky.
We're in a boat at night, carried along by a current we can't see. We don't know how long the voyage will last or if the way is clear, or rough, or outright terrifyning. We lie down to a journey outside of this world and the control and saety that goes aleng with it, our security springs from the security that the trip will end: though we will forget that we're in a boat, we will eventually disembark into the dark and silent waters of deep sleep or onto the sunlit terra firma of the waking world, leaving the boat behind.
But when the dreams stray outside of their realm, as we intuitively know they will when it the time is proper to them, it shakes the fundamental categories around which we trace our world. You're bouncing straight along on the bus, but you have one foot on a rocking dinghy.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I never, quite, am comfortable with a black line between dreams and reality. My dreams often strongly reflect my daily stuff; conversely, I can never be sure if a detail has happened or if I have dreamed it.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Found it after a .com variation. :)

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Speaking of which, are you into sleeping partners?

[skiddlyboo.livejournal.com]

I had a prophetic dream once of eating a salad. It came true. That's cool, but what a stupid thing to waste a premonition on.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Neat, tho

[estrellada.livejournal.com]

anxiety dreams suck.

I am often bewildered by my dream life b/c it's never about the possible or the future...it's about the past and fear.

[hundun.livejournal.com]

I'm not familiar with that term and neither is Wikipedia. Are you refering to sharing a bed in the literal sense?

Hugs

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

I think I'll just leave you hugs and a reminder that you've got a friend who cares, as I'm in that sort of "what can I say that hasn't already been said before?" situation. Me lacking for words is a very unfamiliar thing. Actually, that's not accurate. It's not me lacking for words. It's me lacking for suggestions that don't involve changes I'm not aware of any openness to. The analogy that comes to mind is I can tell you how to change the tire, but not how to patch the holes in the one you have. At the same time, I don't think you've had any doubts that I love and respect you, even when we disagree, so hopefully the hugs help. :)

I have to say, re-reading that, that you're about the only person I'd leave such a rambling flow of consciousness sort of comment on. But it seems suitable, all the same.

[wik.livejournal.com]

You should have kicked his ass. That's just not cool.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Yep. :)

Re: Hugs

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

The hugs do help. I didn't know you were still around! :)

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Hey, they're the people who are 'friends' with him, if they wanna give him their phone numbers...

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I'm not finding the yahoo group somehow. Could you copy-paste the email address from an email to the group?

Re: Hugs

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

The hugs do help. I didn't know you were still around! :)

I don't get on LJ much at all anymore. Just happened to get sent there to see something, and checked your page while I was there to see what all was up of late. I'd noticed you'd reappeared in the games recently. I'm scarce on OS and Chia of late, too, but always available by email, if occasionally procrastinatory in replies. You still have my email addy?

Re: Hugs

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I can gank it off a character if need be. :)

[wik.livejournal.com]

*eyerolls* It's a good thing I haven't been friends with a traditional practical-joking male in over ten years. I'd rip them a new one nowadays.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Is it really traditional? Yuck.

Re: Hugs

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

Since you're obviously online now, or were a minute ago, gank it from Arturo and drop me a line to tell me how much you adore me, or something. ;)

Traditional

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

Practical jokes? Probably, yeah. Prank calls? Only for the young and idiotic with nothing better to do. ;)

Re: Hugs

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I'll do this as soon as I get home from work.

Re: Traditional

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I couldn't believe how constant it was. He'd call, talk for a minute, hang up, call someone else... borrowed his girlfriend's phone, called the people he knew off it...

[cz_unit]

That is a bit weird. Sorry the money thing is turning into stress.

CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Money is always stress for me. In reality, living through situations like this (not really too bad, and people around me behaving decently) helps turn normal money worries into normal money worries, rather than panic attacks.